This Year's Last Posting. *Happy Christmas!*

Hi blog. It's me again. Before I start talking about something else, I just wanna say
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!! GBU all~ X)
sorry I was late to tell this. but anyway, don't you think it's a bit weird that I typed 'happy' instead of 'merry'? well, if you don't know it yet, people from USA said merry and british people said happy. But I didn't typed 'happy' because I wanna follow the british culture (though british english is very unique and the accent is unbelievebly sexy. lol). I just think that happy is a more sutable word to be paired with christmas. when I hear the word 'merry', I think about party, gathering of people. It describes a situation where there's a lot of celebration. I'm not here to preach you or anything, and I'm not saying that celebration is a bad thing, but please! that's completely contast with the origin of christmas itself! what about people that is fighting to survived on the streets? what about people who can't even say to their children that they don't have anymore money to buy food? can they say 'merry'? so I think 'happy' is the right word to say.. and that's what christmas is about. christmas is about the birth of our savior, Jesus Christ. And even if you got a whole bunch of troubles, you can still feel the joy that it brings.
OK, I guess that's all about christmas.. man, what got into me, until I can write all of this. haha
Moving to the next highlight then..
You know, this post is a new inovation for me. This is the first post that was written first on my mobile phone then copied to the web on computer. Why, you asked, did I do such useless thing? Well, that's because I have a weirder sleeping disorder lately. I rarely sleep at night now. Not because I don't want to, but because I'm having such weird dreams, they make me fell so uncomfortable while I sleep. I ended up waking up for several times during the nights. You know that feeling when you're sleeping but it's like your mind is still running so you got the feeling that you're still awake? Yeah, that's what I feel every night. EVERY NIGHT. It really sucks, because now I live like bats. I wake up at nights and sleep at afternoons. I hope this would all just stop. Maybe I should eat some sleeping pills or something..
By the way, I tried to go on detox yesterday. It got screwed up big time. rofl =P. Well,, it actually started of great. I woke up at 11 so I don't have to eat breakfast, then my mother give me some steamed carrot for me to eat. At first I really like the carrots. I felt sweet. But after half of it, I started to hate the taste. It's really really weird. But I ate three quarters anyway. then my mother gave me the biggest fuji apple I've ever seen. And I don't know if it's breaking the rule or not, but I also drink a glass of cold milk too. The first drop of the milk is like seeing an oasis in the desert. haha, OK, maybe I exagerated, but it really does taste good. After that I decided to go for a nap. I woke up about 3 hours later and I really felt sick at that time. my throat is sore, my lips are dry, and my stomach kinda hurt. After about 30 minutes, of struggling, I just lost it. I ran to my mother's room to grab korean instant noodles and cooked it right away. After I finnished eating it, I saw that my father is eating gado-gado and tahu telor. So I just dig in to that too.. To sum up, my detox was a complete failure. lol.
By the way, I think this would be the last post for the year.. I'm going to malaysia on the 29th and will be returned on january the 2nd. Thank you for listening to me fussing and whinning for this whole year. I hope you can deal with me again next year. lol.
I guess I'll be off now. starting to get sleepy. nighty-night my sweet blog.. ^^


N.B. my mother just barge in to my room. I thought she was just checking if I'm already asleep, but then she went into my sister's room. Thank God I need to pee suddenly(my room doesn't have restroom so I have to go to my sis's), coz when I got to the room, my mother just flip out and trying to hide something from me. I didn't see it, but I got a very strong feeling when I see the color and how small the thing my mother took. She directly got out from my sister's room, still trying to hide it, and I followed her. She got to her room and tried to closed the door, but I just pushed the damn thing open and I took it from my mother's hands. It was my sister's cell phone.
me and my sister's SO CALLED mother is trying to read every sms and calls from my sister's phone. How snoopy is that??!? ->(snoopy as in 'kepo' in indonesian, not snoopy the dog. =P)
After I got the phone I ran to my room and locked the door immediately because my mother's chasing me.
Now I remembered she and my sister had a big fight about a month ago because my sister saw two missed calls on 4 a.m.(!!!) from her cell to the stupid ridiculous guy that my mother tries to set her up with. My sister clearly said that she doesn't like him from the very begining. And he doesn't seem to be intrested too with my sister (besides the fact that he told his parents that he like my sister. or does his parents tries to set him up too?? ugh, I don't care which, both just make his parents stupid and ridiculous too). At first my mother lied to save her ass. But, as always, her stories changed everytime she tells it and she finally confessed that she "accidentally" called him. twice.
So this means tonight is not the first time my mother stole my sister's cell. and to think that it happened since about a month ago. Seriously, WHAT IS HER PROBLEM??!? She doesn't have the right to do that, even if she's our mother. HUMAN NEEDS PRIVACY. She always meddle on everthing (and by everything, I mean, EVERYTHING) in our live but this is completely over the line.
hmm, I think I'm going to have a new phobia if this keeps on.. Right now I'm already terrified that I'm gonna go through the exact same thing when I'm 22 or so and don't have a boyfriend. But, I already decide that if it does happen, I'm gonna move out immediately. I will be working by then and I can take my own steps. Or maybe I'll be working on other country coz all my dad talks about now is sending me off to aussie for univ.. One way or another, I will not just stand by if I'm treated like how my sister is treated now.
OK, I think I'm too excited to write about this.. It was supposed to be a note and it's probably longer that the actual post. maybe I should rethink on when I could use the term 'N.B.' on this blog..
alrighty then, this time's for real. I'm off now. But I don't think I'll be sleeping a view moments after this. my mother's still checking every now and then if I'm asleep yet so she can continue.. ugh, I don't even know what it's called.

you know what, this is just to much for me. I need some sleep.
bye.
muachh
-k ^^

A letter for my brother

Dear brother,
I wish you were here. Today is a very special day. Today is the day of my baptism confirmation. Today I renewed my oath that I will only serve God, and God only.. I was so scared.
I wish you were here, so you're the one whom accompanied me to church and help me practice to say what to say correctly.
I wish you were here, so you could say that I have to calm down, that there's nothing to be afraid of.
I wish you were here, so you could hold my hand when I almost cried because I was so overwhelmed.
I wish you were here, so I wouldn't feel so alone on the ceremony.
I wish you were here, so you could watch me and my friends sing our hearts out as a gift to God.
I wish you were here, so you could just walk towards me and smile nonchalantly when the ceremony's finished to hug and congratulate me.
I wish you were here, so we could take a picture together after the ceremony.
I wish you were here, so we could eat and laugh together with our whole family at our home.
I wish you were here, so you would backed me up and calmed me down when one of the peeps upset me.
I wish you were here, and you would remember to turn the timer on my air conditioner's so I wouldn't feel scorching and went to our parents' room to cool down.
I wish you were here, so you could watch movies with me earlier.

I really wish you were here...
But you're not.
'cause you don't even exist...

So I'm just gonna petend that you are here. I'm gonna pretend that you're with me the whole time today. I'm gonna pretend that you were at the church too, and you smiled at me everytime I turned back. and I'm gonna pretend that I didn't cried because I wish you were there.
And I'm gonna pretend that you are here, right here, right now. And you are asking why am I taking so long with the computer. Then you realize that I'm writing on my blog and tries see what's it about. And you're so excited-and a bit proud-when you know that you're the one I writes about. You try to type something too but I just push you with my elbow then I pout and tell you to just sit properly. And now you hug me and smile as I type this. And you said that it's late and I really need some sleep. And you wanna know something? I think I'm gonna follow your advice.

Sweat dreams,

your little sister

P.S. you are punished because you're such a busy-body, wanting to know what's on my post. So you'll have to accompany me to sleep. And you can't fall asleep until I do. So you have to try and make me fall asleep before you sleep yourself. What? you're asking me how?? I don't know. maybe tell bedtime stories and sing lullaby to me? Or maybe just hug me and say that you will always be with me even after I fall asleep, and still be here for me when I wake up. That's enough for me. In fact, that's more than enough. That is all that matters...

sleeping disorder=great instinct?

hi. really in the mood for blogging recently.. lol
I'm doing quite well on the final test until now and there's some highlight that I wanna share.. First is about my sleeps. well,, you can't really say it's a sleeping disorder. it's just a sleeping problem that always occur around tests weeks like now.. It actually started because of my laziness. I always wait until about 11 o'clock at night to study and I always end up falling asleep at about 1 o'clock in the morning and I only study about one fifth of the materials. I know it's stupid, but I keep doing it anyway. It's like my brain refuse to be filled with anything until night time. so I'm trying to make things right today or I'm gonna be sick because I don't get any proper sleep this week. So I'm gonna try to finish this post quickly and have a nice nap. X)

There's actualy something that I really need to tell.. you know, I think my instinct became extremely sharp recently.. I had this crazy expiriences regarding this subject. The first time happened while I was doing history test. The teacher gave us fill in the blanks question and I don't know one of the answers. The question asked about the name of the agreement which said portuguese must go to the north and spain got the south. I completely forgot to study that part so I really got no clue about the answer. So I just thought of cool and elegant name for the agreement like "victoria" or "rose". But while I was thinking about the made-up name,, there was this voice suddenly in my head saying "saragosa.. the answer is saragosa..". I was like 'what? isn't saragosa one of a name from WW1 or something?' but that voice keep saying "it's saragosa.. just answer it.. you don't know the answer, do you? and you know all the names you're making is not the right answer. why don't you give it a shot? if you're being persistent and the answer is saragosa, you're gonna regret it big time..". And so I answered "Saragosa Agreement". I checked the answer as soon as I finished doing the test. And guess what?? The answer IS the saragosa agreement. I'm still a bit shock until right now about it.. how could I think of the name saragosa? I clearly remember that I didn't get to that part because I fell asleep. Is it possible that my subconsciousness woke up and study while I was sleeping?? That's wayyy freaky.. So I guess I'm just gonna think of it as a miracle from God.. X)
The second expirience was almost the same with the first. But it was on geography test and I forgot the term of a bump in the ocean that was made due of a volcano eruption. I already write 'child of a volcano' on the paper when the same thing happened again.. the voice said "Atol.. the term's Atol..". But somehow I didn't believe it (my consciousness?) and just go with my own answer.. But again, when I checked, the answer's "Atol".. oh well..

Oh,, and there's also something a bit stupid happened yesterday.. I was just going downstairs with my friends when I saw O was chatting with his friends. then I reallized that he cut his cool hair! that hair was one of the reason I had a crush on him and he cut it! bummer. but on the bright side I guess it would be easier to forget him.. Anyway,, I told my friends and they wanna look too.. And as they were looking, U came down.. with her. I guess it's really on again with them.. 'twas suck seeing them laughing together like that. ohh,, I don't know..
erhm,, anyway.. U was coming down and I spontaniously shouted (well, not very loud of course.. and it was time to go home, so it was a noisy place) "you see??? he's not that cute anymore because of his new haircut..". U turned his head to me almost dirrectly after I said that, but I don't really know if he heard me or not.. But because of his sudden movement and he was standing right next to me when that happened, my face turned all red, and it's my friends' turn to shout. They said "Your face is red!!", and this time, He definitely turned his head to me.. I don't really know what to react to the occation. What does he think about that? Does he think that I still have feelings for him or does he think that I already find someone else? I think it's pretty clear that he's now return to chasing her.. but somehow I feel that he's still on a crossroad, just like me.. But with him leaving the school next year to follow his brother's footsteps (stinkin' footsteps.. why can't he erase his footsteps so U can't see it? Why can't U MAKE his own steps??? stupid brothers..), I know I really need a closure right away. But I really don't want one.. hmphh.. He really is the greatest puzzle I've ever met.

OK I guess that all for today.. I'm really really really really sleepy right now..
wish me luck on having a great nap X). bubye~

tests are here

hi. it's been a long time..
haven't written a post in a while.. haven't written it in english in a longer time..
the final tests are here already.. man, time goes by so fast, doesn't it?
many things had happened recently.. you know, both SMILE and DIRECTOR are finished.. both of 'em are school events which I organised with my friends.. SMILE is school's sport league and DIRECTOR is teachers' day. All of us had our ups and downs but it all ended awesome. And there're also much drama for director.. you know, with the prelonged final test and all.. And there's also a huge fight with the junior high school teachers minutes before the show begins.. It was soooo intense. You see, the teachers' day was supposed to be held on tuesday, but due of the prelonged test, it was postponed to thursday.. Turned out the junior high had a religious service before director started and our decoration seemed to be 'in the way'. you know, although the auditorium looked a bit empty because not many decoration was put, but some of us worked until almost midnight at the auditorium!!! seriously! anywho,, one of the teacher from junior high (sapto!) started to tie our very-fragile black drapes and moving things up without telling any of the comittee. when we asked what was he doing, he started yelling at us and blaming us.. He said if we want to get the students out fast then all of the decoration must be put aside becouse they were in the way.. one of my friend was being persistent that the equipments couldn't be moved just like that and both of them ended up fighting.. then my friend ot really angry and said that today we were celebrating teachers' day so how could we respect him if he's acting like that. Then the teacher-which already turn around-go back and pull my friend's shirt while shouting 'you wanna fight??!?' thennn,, he kick my friend.. on the crotch.. after that all of us which earlier was still startled with the arguement started to move. the junior's teachers' calmed him and all of us calmed my friend.. After that three of the teachers talked t o us.. well, I thought they wanna apologize for his rude behavior but they just wanna scold us some more.. one of the teacher who talked a lot even pry up the school's motto for this year, being humble, and said that we were lack of it because we didn't know better that the teacher's short temperred and chalenged him instead. That's right, WE were blamed because HE kicked our friend. I mean, what kind of teacher is that?? first they didn't even say anything when one of their colleague clearly said and done something rude to a student, then they blamed us for what happened with many absurd excuses! AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN APOLOGIZE AT ALL!!! They want their students be hitmans or something??? WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BELOVED JUNIOR HIGH???
Anyway, we told what happened to a teacher immediately and this case is gonna be proccessed. well,, despite of the huge fight,, the event's pretty much a success.. It got screwed up in the begining a bit though,, but it ended well.. And we didn't even rehearsed.. so the whole event was done spontaniously. lol

Lately I'm being more confused than usual.. My eyes also got wilder and stared every potentially cute guys around me. Well,, I guess my story between me and him has definitely gone to the dumpster.. He won't even looked at me anymore.. I thought I'd forget him too.. But somehow yesterday I dreamt that he found someone else, and I woke up crying.. What happened to me?? I don't think my heart still beating fast when he's around but why did I cry at the thought of him being with someone else?
I'm also being more and more short-temperred recently.. I also critic everything. And by everything, I mean EVERYTHING. But mainly other people's behaviour. I've began to feel that all of my friends have drifted away, sick of my bad behavior.. I'm scared.. But I'm also confused. If they won't accept me and my weakness, why should I even try accept theirs? But if I don't try, they will be ruder and ruder, and I will have worse attitude.. and it goes over and over like that until somebody confront me and nobody wants to be my friend anymore.. *sigh* high school is hard isn't it?

Well,, I guess that all for today.. I've commited to study a bit for monday's test.. and they are also assignment that was supposed to be due on friday.. oh well..

Bonne nuit.
-K

my super-valuable bag is gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've lost my favourite little bag.. T.T
actually I lost it yesterday, but I just noticed an hour ago..
my first hyphothesis is that I accidentally dropped it on the street. yesterday my mother was angry as usual and scold me in the car. the only thing I could only think about is to get out of the car immidiately and when I got the chance, I just got out hastily without double-checked my belongings..
the second is the bag got missplaced somewhere in the house.. I got my mobile which I put on the bag so there's no way I left it at school..
the third hyphothesis is that somebody stole it..
I think the first hyphothesis is the most likely to happened.. the second is the most ussual and possible one but I've search, like everywhere and I found nothing.. And I don't wanna accused anybody by believing the third..
But either way,, it's still gone.. T.T
btw, you know why's that my favourite bag?? because every valuable thing that I've got are in there.. my eyedrops, my hair chopstick, my braces rubber,, and most importantly, my HEADPHONES!!!! what can I do without them??? T.T
I've shoutouted,, tweeted,, said it on my personal message,, and now I'm posting it.. Guys, please help me pray so I can found it,, or give me the willingness to let go if it's really gone..
GOD, helpppppppp.. >.<

mainly just topics..

ahhhh,, udah tralu banyak yang mo gw critain.. bingung gw.. T.T
ok, gw mulai dari bulan lalu.. (jau amat ya.. --")
jadi bulan lalu tuh ada acara 'I am Straight'. .....
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ahh,, males gw ceritanya.. pokoknya intinya dekornya keren, tapi acaranya ga nyambung ama judulnya.


ok, topik kedua.. sekitar bulan lalu juga..
mati lampu.. duhh, males juga ceritanya.. pokoknya intinya gw kesel gara2 panas di skul dan ketika mo ngadem di rumah lampunya mati juga. akhirnya gw sekeluarga makan di BK di mal gading.


topik ke3..
gw bikin kari jepang. gagal. nyokap ngamuk2 waktu ngajarin gw bikin.. akhirnya blok karinya gosong sebagian.. tapi lumayan lah..


topik ke4..

gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren gameboy keren

bingung gw ada orang sekeren itu di dunia.. wkwkwk...


topik ke5..
gw benci dia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maunya apa c?? kalo misalnya ga suka yaudah c!!!!!!! ga usah rese!!!!!! ahhhhh,, kenapa harus dia???!?? T.T


Topik ke6
I love english. more than bahasa, maybe. you know, I think it's kinda my thing. I mean seriously, what else have I got?? It never lets me down when it comes to having good score. I will not let it be taken away from me.


Topik ke7
musim ujan tiba.. dinginnnnnn.. >.<>
Topik ke8 2 hari lalu gw upload foto2 SMILE. gw kira bakalan kayak uploadan gw yang sebelumnya, tapi kali ini responnya beda banget. banyak yang komen2 dan ngetag-in temen2nya. dan ada 4 orang yang jadiin foto gw profile picture fbnya. X) bangga banget gw. ini enaknya jadi pubdok.. wkkwkwk topik ke9.. gw emang ditakdirkan ga punya temen ato gimana c?? dari semua orang yang gw kenal,, yang bener2 deket ma gw bisa diitung ama jari.. apa kepribadian gw sejelek itu ya? dan kayaknya semakin keras gw mencoba buat ngapus semua kejelekan gw semua orang malah makin benci gw.. duhh,, mo gimana lagi coba.. kalo gw gini terus gue bisa gila.. entah kenapa sanguin gw jalan banget kalo soal bertemen.. gw strez kalo ada orang ngomongin sesuatu di sebelah gw tapi gw ga diajak.. gw ngerasa sendirian kalo orang2 disekitar gw seru2an dan gw ga bareng mereka.. gw ngerasa dikucilin kalo pada ngelakuin sesuatu dan gw ga diajak.. terlalu banyak hal yang bikin gw gila, dan tindakan gw untuk mempertahankan kewarasan gw malah membuat suatu masalah baru yang bisa bikin gw gila juga.. gue rada budek kalo denger sesuatu karena gw selalu pake headphone dengan volume penuh buat netralisir suara nyokap ngomel2 2 jem buat hal yang ga penting. gue jarang bisa jawab sesuatu dengan yakin karena gw takut disalah2in kalo gw salah jawab sesuatu. gue pelupa karena kalo gw inget semuanya, yang gw inget pasti yang jelek2 dan itu cuma akan bikin gw nangis terus2an. gue seleboran karena gw selalu kecewa sama hasil kerja gw yang menurut gw jelek. gue udah cape kecewa ama diri gw sendiri. gue suka kepo karena gw takut kalo ngeliat orang2 ngomongin sesuatu tanpa gw. gw takut gw bukan bagian dari orang2 itu. gw takut gw yang mereka omongin.. gw takut.. gue terlalu sering ngomongin cowo padahal cuma muter2 disitu doang karena gw udah ga tau lagi apa yang bisa nyelametin gw dari kegilaan ini.. entah kenapa gw masih berharap nanti gw akan ketemu seseorang yang ada disisi gw. gw yakin orang itu akan bikin gw lupa ama semua ketakutan gw, semua kesendirian gw. dan orang itu akan terus ngedorong gw sampe gw jadi orang yang lebih baik.. So, buat semua yang baca ini dan lu ngerasa ada sesuatu dalam diri gw yang bikin lu kesel, please, kasih gw kesempatan. kalo emang parah, bilang aja ke gw.. mungkin gw akan berontak, ato lebih ekstrimnya nangis, tapi gw tau itu demi kebaikan gw. udah ahh, kapan2 nulis lagi.. kalo gw bisa buka blogspot di hape gw bakal post lebih sering. wish me luck..
k-

Happy Halloween!!

Happy Halloween guys!!
Actually I wanna give a very long post but it's really late so I guess I just post it tomorrow..
Bonne nuit.
K-

Photos from Safari Park

Well without any further ado (due to the very long postponement time :P) here's the photos from Safari Park~ this is the hall where the shows happened.. those dots under the roof are people..

and that's just the right wing of the hall, people..

in front of the haunted house building..

BIRD ARIAVY & BABY ZOO

The famous Bird of Paradise.. But I must say I'm a little dissapointed.. I though it would be bigger.. oh, well

the bird that helps marlin finds nemo.. called pelican if I'm not mistaken..

the bird with a big beak.. I forgot the name..

Flaminggos~

Lion Cub!! XD

Jaguar and some India guy..

Bengal Tiger

White Bengal Tiger. It's asleep.. XD

So there you have it.. lol

PYPL

sori dah lama ga nulis blog.. truz foto2 yg di taman safari ada di post abis ini koq.. hehe..
mm, mungkin highlight baru2 ini PYPL kli yaa.. ok, gw mulai dri perjalanan kesana..
skul nyuruh kita buat dateng jem 6, ato ga kita ditinggal.. tapi nyatanya waktu anak2 laen udah pda masuk kita belom pergi tuh.. --" sebenernya gw udah rada ngeri c,, bayangin aja, ransel gw termasuk yang paling gede se-gelombang.. gw bingung ada yg bsa bwa tas kecil banget.. kita dikasi makan pagi hokben, jadi yang belom pergi n baca ini mending ga usah sarapan deh.. anyway, abis sarapan dkk kita disuru masuk tronton.. dan disinilah kegilaan dimulai.. semua orang langsung shock ngeliat kecilnya tronton yang disiapin.. buat 20 orang aja kayaknya udah empet2an gtu duduknya.. ini kita ber38.. tadinya kita udah strez gtu deh, cuma akhirnya semua yang cewe duduk n yang cowo berdiri selama perjalanan.. Nah, waktu udah mulai jalan, dimulailah kegilaan kedua.. gw kan masuk duluan (biar dapet tempat duduk gtu.. haha) jdi dapet tempat duduknya didepan gtu.. Nah, ternyata dy duduk pas dibagian belakang tronton klaz dy.. dan tronton dy pas didepan tronton gw.. wkwkwk. dimulai deh liat2an gw ma dy.. kayaknya kita berdua berpikir "klo gw ngeliat kearah dia kan belom tentu dy kira gw beneran ngeliatin dy". jadi selama perjalanan tuh gw ampe kenyang ngeliatin dy dan dy jga ngeliatin ke gw terus.. wkwkwk..
Nyampe2 di d' jungle agricon, trontonnya tba2 brenti di plang selamat dateng n kita disuruh keluar semua.. bis itu kita langsung dibagi ke kelompok2 sama dikasih peta abis itu disuruh jalan lagi.. jalannya cape bangeeetttt!!! jadi kayak tanjakan ekstrim gtu.. kelompok gw nyasar lgi.. pkknya sampe2 ke tempat tujuan badan gw udah sakit semua deh.. Nah, bis itu kita disuru pilih tenda, istirahat bentar bis itu ngikutin 2 sesi.. hmm, gw c kurang suka ama pembicaranya.. cma lumayan lah.. nah,, selama sesi, tiba2 tuh ujan gedeeee,, banget.. yah, nga ampe badai gtu c, cuma petirnya lumayan bikin merinding. nah, kita langsung berspekulasi kan.. soloingnya jadi nga yaa.. ada yang langsung berdoa biar ga jadi sekalian, ada yang malah berdoa biar ujannya cepetan berenti biar bisa soloing.. klo gw pribadi sebenernya pengen banget soloing c, cuma kalo udah ujan gtu gw jadi rada males. kan tanah jdi becek dkk.. jadi dilema gtu deh gw.. wkwk. Nah, akhirnya, kaka2 bina warga mutusin kita masak masal dulu di tenda utama abis itu baru soloing.. yepp, kita bener2 kayak bikin dapur masal gtu disana.. tpi jadi enak c, bisa ngobrol2 bareng temen, bantuin dan dibantuin masak,, bahkan bisa ketawa bareng waktu ada yang bikin apinya nyala kayak tungku bara api gtu.. cuma tuh yang gw bingung, koq gw waktu nyiapn pertama kali cepet banget yaa? jdi tuh waktu gw udah kelar n gw bediri, yang laen masih sibuk2 sendiri gtu.. cuma akhirnya parafim gw mati n gw harus nyalain ulang c.. dan setelah itu mati lagi, mati lagi, dan mati lagi.. waktu entah usaha gw buat nyalain yang keberapa, gw udah kesel banget sampe2 parafim yang masih panas langsung gw pegang n gw bakar lgi.. akhirnya jempol gw melepuh deh.. wkwkwk. cuma akhirnya tungku gw nyala c berkat temen gw yang bikin api kayak api unggun itu c.. soalnya gw peratiin yang apinya terus nyala tuh yang apinya keliatan dipermukaan rantang.. mm, nasinya jadinya enak c, cuma entah kenapa walopun gw belom kenyang tpi gw udah enek gtu..
nah, abis bikin dapur masal, mulai deh soloingnya kita.. kelompok gw tuh kloter kedua.. cuma gra2 ujan lagi, kaka2 BW ga berani nempatin kita jauh2.. jadilah kita Rame-ing.. wkwkwk. banyak temen2 gw yang ngomel2 c gra2 mereka ga ngerasain soloing yang sebenernya, cuma gw rasa2in aj tuh.. karena gw adalah orang terakhir dalam kelompok gw yang didrop, gw jdi dapet sampahnya gtu.. walopun belakang bivak gw rame n kita2 10m dari bivak gw ada temen gw, tpi kalo udah masuk bivak, kiri gw tuh utan, kanan gw tuh utan.. ngeri banget gw.. T.T
Truz waktu udah brapa lama di bivak tiba2 gw menggigil gtu lagi.. tadinya gw masih bisa nahan.. soalnya pertama cuma dikaki doank.. tapi abis itu ngejalar terus ampe 1 badan gw udah ga bisa berenti gemeter.. gw udah mulai pertimbangin buat niup peluit c, cuma gw takut kedingingan gw dibilang ga penting truz gw ditinggal lagi.. cuma setelah beberapa lama, gemeteran gw udah ga bisa ditahan n gw udah mo nangis gara2 gemeter gw itu, jadi gw beraniin diri niup peluit.. truz kn gw disamperin n gw bilang klo gw ga tahan dingin banget. akhirnya gw dievakuasi gtu.. selama bivak gw diberesin, yang evakuasi gw nyadar klo gw cma pke 1 sarung tangan, truz dy suruh gw pke dua2nya.. mampus gw.. sebenernya itu sarung gw bawa buat masak, cuma gra2 dingin banget akhirnya gw pke itu.. cuma akhirnya gw ngaku c.. dan ketawalah kaka pembimbing gw.. yepp, ditengah gw lgi gemeteran gila2an (yang setelah dievakuasi gw baru tau klo nmanya hipotermia) kakanya bisa2nya ketawain gw.. malu banget deh gw pkknya.. Singkat cerita, gw diselametin truz dirawat truz disuruh balik lagi ke tenda gede.. (yang ngomong2 kayaknya semua anaknya ditarik gra2 gw ma temen gw hipoterm deh).
Besoknya diadakanlah outbond. game pertama tuh game enggrang gtu.. jdi kita dikasih enggrang yang tingginya 3 meteran, truz kita disuru lomba.. our team rocked it. maklum lah, temen2 setim gw banyak yang jago OR n koordinasi gtu, jadi kita cukup sukses lah..
Game kedua judulnya escape from alcatraz.. keren abis loh namanya.. cuma gamenya bikin kesel ahh.. jdi ada bambu2 kecil ama 2 balok panjang. kita harus lewatin bambu pertama ampe bambu terakhir pke balok itu.. sayangnya waktu kita udah tau caranya waktunya abis.. yasuw lah..
Game ke3, Crossing over. Jdi ada 2 mangkok kobokan, 4 bambu sepanjang tangan, trek, ama ember diujung trek.. kita disuruh isi ember yg diujung trek dengan syarat ga ada yang boleh nyentuh trek. tadinya gw usul buat bikin bangku pke itu 4 bambu, cuma akhirnya bambu yang dipake cuma 2.. tau ga c? kita tuh berhasil penuhin ember cepet banget.. akhirnya kaka2 BW nya challenge kita.. embernya dikosongin lgi dan kita ulang dengan cara yang mereka mau.. cuma kalo kita menang lagi, kita dapet bonus 20. akhirnya kita setuju. ternyata yang mereka mau tuh kita bikin jembatan pke bambu itu. jembatan berjalan.. tadinya kita lancar2 aja c, cuma terjadi setidaknya 3 kecelakaan, akhirnya kita kalah deh..
Game keempat gw lupa namanya dan gw bener2 benci game yang ini. jadi ada pipa yang dipasang lurus kira2 3 meter dri tanah. truz ada ember 1 meter disebelah itu pipa. ada 9 ember kecil n 1 ember gede. kita dikasih 2 tali rafia ama 4 pipa, dan kita harus isi semua ember yang ada.. kelompok gw payah di yang ini.. sebenernya pertama kali kita coba cara kita udah bener, cuma gra2 kita ga mo basah2an jadi kita kalah telak. dan orang2 BW jga nyemangatin kita dengan cara yang kurang bener. mreka malah banding2in kita ama kelompok lawan.. yaia lah kita langsung kesel n mogok kerja.. cuma gw tba2 inget c klo kita tuh camp cuma dinilai soloing ama outbond.. klo outbond kita kayak gtu mo jadi apa coba nilainya??? jadi gw bujuk temen2 kelompok gw.. kita ga harus ngerahin semua tenaga kita,, kita ga harus ngejar tim lawan, asal keliatan kerja aja.. akhirnya kita kerja lagi c, tp ttep aja kelar2 kita diomelin..
Truz 2 game terakhir berhubungan dengan ketinggian.. gw ga ush cerita ahh, bete banget. sebenernya pengen ikut, cuma keadaan tidak memungkinkan.. huhh..
Nah kelar outbond kita langsung beres2 truz pulang deh.. sebelum itu ada debreifing c.. jdi ngebahas soloing n outbond.. truz kaka pembimbing gw kebetulan yg mimpin debriefing dan dia dengan tenangnya nyebut2 gw hipotermia, bahkan pke nyontoh2in lemesnya gw waktu niup peluit.. 1 tenda langsung ngeliat gw semua yee.. (thanks ka.. --")
pulang2 di tronton gw udah ga kuat ngobrol lama2. walopun gw ga bsa tidur gra2 supir2 tronton ngobrol lewat klakson.. (kode morse kali yaa?)
truz nyampe2 di skul jem 1/2 9an.. pulang2 gw langsung keramas. sebeneranya abis itu masih pengen ngerjain hal laen c, cuma gw ketiduran..
truz hailnya sekarang tangan ama muka gw item gtu deh.. kulit kepala gw kebakar matahari lgi.. aneh2 aj y..

duhh, sebenernya masih banyak yang pengen gw ceritain.. tpi gw udah cape banget.. udah malem lgi.. ahh, upload ftonya jga ngaret lgi deh.. T.T

One of the greatest day of my life

mmm, udah brapa lama yaa gw nga ngeblog?? gila nih. uda strez banget gw. biasa lah.. kebiasaan buruk gw muncul lagi. tiap ari tugas ditumpuk, minggu ini n minggu lalu tuh deadline semua tugasnya. udah kelabakan banget gw.. truz besok juga banyak tugas c.. cuma bener2 lgi ga mood gw.
hmm, kmaren2 ada kejadian seru apa yaa.. udah lupa semua lagi.. gw cerita oal kemaren aja deh..
gini, kmaren tuh gw sekeluarga pergi ke taman safari. acara brg2 temen kerja bokap gw gtu lah.. ktanya c 4 taun skali.. banyak banget loh pesertanya.. cuma seharusnya kmaren kn gw ngurusin SMILE. Gw nga enak jga c tba2 ninggalin gtu aja. gw koornya lgi.. cuma gw udah didaftarin bokap gw dri bulan maret kmaren c.. klo dibatalin jga harus bayar denda gtu.. jdi sori yaa temen2 panitia.. >.<
gw tuh pegi dari rumah jem 7. nyampe2 jem 9 di taman safari.. entah kenapa waktu masuk pintu yang gading gajah itu gw langsung degdegan gtu.. yah, trakhir kli gw ke taman safari kan 10 taun yang lalu.. disitu dulu ada binatang apa aja gw udah lupa.. pkknya dlu yg gw inget pengalaman umur 5 taun ato sekitarnya. jdi mobil gw waktu lgi dikandang singa tba2 dicegat gtu ma singa 3 biji.. akhirnya mobil gw dianterin ma penjaga kandangnya. wkwkwk
aniwey, karena nyokap gw lebai tiba2 n ga mau duduk didepan (kenapa coba???) jdi gw yg pindah didepan. gila gw kmaren kayak orang norak banget y.. setiap binatang yang gw liat pasti gw foto. abis gw bener2 nga nyangka semua binatang yang biasanya cuma gw liat gambarnya di inet tiba2 cuma beda beberapa jengkal ma gw. (khususnya binatang llama yang nyium2 kaca jendela gw beberapa kali.. gigi2nya tonggos2 gtu.. wkwk)
Selesai muter2, dimulai deh acara kebersamaannya. tempatnya bener2 padet banget!! pkknya denger2 ada 22 bus ato gimana gtu. anywho, namanya jga taman safari, jadi shownya pasti ada binatangnya lah yaa.. gw bener2 salut loh ama mereka. dari gajah, tikus, kucing, bebek, orang utan, ampe kuda bisa mereka latih. pkknya lucu banget deh.. truz mreka kreatif jga, jdi ceritanya kayak lgi camping gtu kn, truz tba2 salah satu pemainnya tereak ketemu uler, truz ulernya dilemparin ke penonton. dilemparinnya ke arah gw lagi. gila langsung pada ngacir semuanya. tpi ternyata yg dilempar cuma boneka gtu.. wkwk.
abis liat show pertama, qta semua makan siang. pilihannya ada 3, SFC (safari fried chicken. yang FYI tulisannya sama persis kayak KFC cuma K-nya diganti S), Mie ayam jamur, n Nasi Padang. gw c tadinya pengen SFC, cuma gra2 antriannya panjaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang banget, akhirnya gw makan mie. Abis makan siang acara bebas. Karena gw sebelumnya udah ngebooking gw mo ke Baby Zoo, jdi 1 keluarga langsung tancep ke sana. gila, didalem situ bener2 keren banget!!! pertama2 ada bird ariavy. semua burungnya bener2 dilepas kayak dihabitat aslinya. bahkan kira2 3x ada burung yang terbang pas diatas gw. kepakan sayapnya berasa gtu.. truz ada burung cendrawasih lagi.. XD gila, mank keren banget tuh burung. nah, setelah jalan ditrek gtu, ketemu deh tempat yang udah jadi impian gw sejak kecil. gw ketemu ma anak singa!!! XDD beneran deh mereka tuh lucu banget. ada dua gtu, lgi maen2 ama pel. truz udah gtu ada macan tutul, ada harimau sumatera, ata white bengal tiger. dan mereka semua ga terpisah kaca ama gw. yang misahin cuma pager setinggi paha. Gw udah ngebet banget foto bareng tuh kemaren.. cuma bokap gw ga ngasih.. T.T kayaknya bokap gw pernah liat ada orang dicakar macan, jdi dy parno gtu deh.. padahal orang sebelum gw foto bareng n tangannya udah dijilat2in ma macan tutulnya gtu, tpi ga digigit koq.. T.T
Keluar2 dri baby zoo, (gw masih dalem keadaan ngambek) qta muter2 lgi. nonton tiger n lion show, ke primate house.. dan selama perjalanan tuh gw ga berenti makan. bis kesel banget c.. anak singa udah didepan mata, ehh, ga boleh foto..
Acara trakhir qta tuh nonton cowboy show. Gila, itu A-Must-Watch banget!! Pemainnya all out banget. bahkan ada yang rela kelelep di aer ampe 7 menitan (pasti ada oksigen masknya c.. tpi kn dingin) buat ngedukung cerita. truz efek ledakannya juga banyak banget. truz mereka juga jailin penonton gtu. jdi yang adegan orang kelelep itu, kan berantem dulu dideket aer. nah tempat aernya itu pas didepan penonton. truz waktu mereka erantem aernya sengaja diciprat2in gtu. langsung basah kuyup lah orang2 dibarisan paling depan. truz mreka jga pke trik lempar binatang2an.. tapi kali ini tikus maenan yang dilempar.. wkwkwk.
Selain itu, efek yang hebat lgi tuh panah2 yang bisa keluar2 sendiri, truz waktu tembak2an tuh ada darah yang muncrat beneran. tpi jdi agak fulgar c buat ditonton anak2.

Qta turun dari sfari jem 4an.. selama perjalanan kn gw ketiduran.. Truz bangun2 lgi tuh udah gelap gtu.. gw kira udah mo nyampe kan.. nga taunya tuh masih dicisarua! kayaknya selama gw tidur jalannya ditutup gtu. pkknya qta baru nyampe ke gadink buat makan malem tuh jem 8an..

Nah, waktu makan malem tuh ada kejadian yang bikin shocking banget. duh, pkknya bener2 gak bisa diungkapin dengan kata2 deh. tapi tuh yang bikin gw bingung reaksi gw ama itu kejadian. bukannya gw panik ato gimana, tapi gw malah tenang2 aja. ahh,, pkknya kejadian kemaren malem bener2 unforgetable deh.. X)

hmm, segini aja deh cerita gw. hari ini ga ada kejadian seru. cuma ada beberapa kejadian ngeselin.
nanti yaa foto2 di safarinya gw upload..
bubye.

Giving up before fighting

Who said giving up before fighting is stupid?? Well, I think the people who said that are stupid. They should've been being me, then I'm 100% sure they would change their mind.
Well, let me start by telling you about today.
Today is the day UNESCO gonna decide is batik the original culture of Indonesia. So everyone was told to wear batik. I was freaking out yesterday because every batik shirt that I have need a belt. But after a while I decided to wear my purple batik blouse. But the bluose was very-very-very big, although the size was 'S'. When I reached school, I was told that the belt was really weird and kinda over-dressed. So one of my friend help me to tie the end of the blouse so it's not so big. But at the first recess, some of my friends told me that the tied-blouse looked silly and they told me just to put on the belt. So I did. When I get to class after recess, it was english and my teacher said that the belt made me look like a karate-girl. She told me to put it off or just wore it on my hip. So I asked to go to the bathroom because I already made a little mass and some of particular people was watching with a glare. But then I decided to just wore the belt. At the second recess, more people commented. Some love the belt; some loathe it. At the third recess, I forgot the details but I was furious because EVERYONE were commenting on my belt. So I just take the damn thing off and I shouted at everyone who dared to comment on my blouse and/or the belt.
Oh, and at the second recess I was told that from the long holiday he's still having he's thinking about me for three days. The earliest was yesterday evening. On the bright side, at least he IS actually thinking about me on his very exciting holiday. But I was also informed that the chances for us to be together are 50:50. It seems that the reason of his happiness at the 4 last day of school was because he got a chance to be close with a girl. And my informer doesn't know who that girl was. 50% chance it was me, 50% chance that he recently likes someone else.
My head says that I shouldn't believe in chances. Having that material in school really open my eyes. My heart says..,, I don't know.. It's really beaten up and half of it already agree with my head. Half of it just wanted to wait and hope for the best. But there's when another problem appear. I'm affraid, terrified actually, that he's gonna let me down like everyone else if I keep liking him. I just couldn't bear it anymore. But I also no longer have the ability to forget about him. Since I used all of my strength to forget him the first time, and he manage to pull himself back into my mind. So I can't do it all over anymore. I just can't..

So back to the first paragraph of this post, is giving up really stupid? Even if I haven't made a real move, What if I just just couldn't hold the pain?
The real question for my problem is which is worst? The pain of waiting for someone to love you back or the pain of trying to forget someone you really cares about??

*btw, there's actually more I want to tell today.. but I forgot what else when I'm halfway writing this post.. oh, well..

holiday is over. :) :(

hari ini hari terakhir libuuurrrr
hmm, sebenernya gw pengen nulis blog selama libur c.. Cma tuh kmaren keluarga gw (baca: bokap, cici, n cici sepupu gw) tiba2 terobsesi ma game Zuma yg ada di kompi gw. Jdi wkt gw mo bka facebook jga mreka tungguin. Kn ga mungkin dunk gw nulis blog didepan mereka.
Duh, selama liburan gw kurang enjoy nih.. Yep, gra2 spa lgi. Gila y, tuh orang kayaknya uda sukses banget bikin gw gila. selama liburan tuh gw mikirin diaaa,, mulu.. hikz. Gw tkut klo misalnya sebelum liburan dy tuh mank uda pnya sedikit perasaan k gw, liburan yg cukup panjang ini bakalan bikin itu semua ilang. Truz dy balik ngejar2 gebetannya yg lma deh.. jah.
Tpi gw uda dinasehatin jga c ma beberapa orang. Klo misalnya dy mank lupain gw ya biarin aja lah. artinya mank ga jodoh. yahh, tpi kn nyesek di gw jga. bayangin aja, gw udah hampir berhasil lupain dy, gw udah hampir demen ma orang lain, ehh, dianya malah narik gw lgi. sekarang gmna coba? gw bener2 udah jatoh ditangan dy. lagi liburan, bukannya dinikmatin, malah gw abisin bwt mikirin dy.
Tapi, walopun dy ga lupain gw selama liburan ini, ada hal laen yang harus gw pikirin. belakangan ini gw ngerasa ada di dunia yang beda ma dy. yahh, mank uda lama banget c sejak qta terakhir kali ngomong. Tpi belakangan ini makin kerasa aja. Gw ngerasa nga nyambung banget ma temen2 sekitar dia. kayaknya mank mereka kurang suka ma gw deh. Trus, dlu tuh gw berpikir klo dia tuh selama ini cuma nutupin diri dia yang sesungguhnya ke mereka. Gw masih nganggep dia kayak dlu.. kayak waktu SMP. waktu kita berdua masih sama2 berjuang buat diterima. Tapi gimana kalo dia bener2 udah berubah? Gimana kalo dia sekarang bener2 udah jadi salah satu dari mereka? apa gw masih suka ma dy klo kayak gtu?? hmm, mungkin itu gw pikirin nanti. kalo gw udah berkomunikasi lgi ma dy. Kalo juga dapet kesempatan. Kalo engga,, yahh..

huaahh,, tugas gw numpuk nih!! dan hebatnya yang numpuk tuh banyakan bukan tugas pelajaran.
gw harus ngerjain layout buletin.
gw harus bikin KIR.
gw harus bikin poster seni rupa.
harus beresin kamar,
harus beresin lemari..
duh, gimana yaa..

eia.. truz gw lum sempet ke mangdu lgi. hikz2. untung selama di bandung gw beli beberapa barang. Gw udah beli kardigan tangan panjang warna item, tube top, legging panjang, n kaos yg tangannya lebar bahan stengah transparan yang kayaknya lgi ngetrend. Dan gw beli semua oitu kurang dri 300 rbu. gw bener2 shock banget kemaren. Udah biasa belanja di mal yang harga termurahnya 100 rbu c.. kmaren wkt gw liat kardigan yg gw beli harganya cma 89rbu n tube topnya cuma 55rbu, hampir khilaf gw. wkwkwk. ahh, pkknya gw kmaren puas banget belanja. ketemu banyak FO bagus pula. sebenernya awal2nya gra2 go girl tuh. kn gw liat di salah satu artikelnya ada kafe yang kayaknya keren banget. Nmanya Nanny's Pavillion. jdi gw bilang ke bokap gw, gw mo kesana. Nah, gra2 macet banget, jdi gw parkir rada jauh dari tempatnya. dalem perjalanan, cici gw yang udah ngebet ke FO langsung masuk aj ke FO terdekat. nmanya Clover. Di FO itu gw temuin tube top n kardigan gw. Kelar2 gw belanja di Clover, qta langsung jalan ke kafe. Nyampe2, kafenya rame bangeeettt!!! padahal bukan jem makan tuh waktu itu. Akhirnya gw diajakin muter dlu di tempat itu. ternyata Nanny's Pavillion itu cma di berandanya doank. Dalemnya tuh FO. namanya Black Market. Isinya lebih ikutin trend c. N kyknya lbih high fashion jga. tapi harganya mank lebih mahal c.

Huahh,, udahan dulu deh. uda ngantuk gw. tugas belom ada yg gw kerjain lgi. mampus dah..

libur libur libur

libur lebaran telah tibaaa.. mmm, sebenernya udah tiba beberapa ari c.. cm blom mood nulis di blog. wkwkwk. setelah beberapa ari kayak orang ga ada kerjaan di skul akhirnya libur jga.. gila y, kayaknya kelas gw tuh mank uda ga niat skul banget. aura2 males udah menjalar ampe ke guru2nya. yahh, pkknya menurut gw skul n ga skul hampir ga ada bedanya.. gw bosen gilaa.. tpi gw ga tau c, lebih bosen di skul dan ga ngapa2in ato di rumah dan ngapa2in. kontras abis ma anak ipa yang bener2 seneng waktu libur ini. ato jangan2 ank ips yg laen jga seneng?? berarti gw donk yg ga normal???? ahhhh, pusing banget gw. gw ada pe-er apa aja yaa? koq kayaknya ga ada gru yg ngasi pe-er yaa? ato jangan2 ada??

oh ia, gw cerita dlu deh hari2 terakhir gw sebelum libur lebaran. jadi tuh ari kamis gw ampir ga belajar gtu. nyesel jga gw bwa bku banyak2. hampir ga ada yang kepake. soalnya 2 jem pertama grunya hampir ga ngajar dan selama 4 jp berikutnya gw dipanggil rapat. dan 2 jp terakhir lab ing yg bisa dibilang jga ga belajar.

ngomong2 soal rapat, gw mo ngelapor jga soal rapat ROOF yang baru. sekarang namanya uda diganti. jadi DIRECTOR. Dedication of Our Teachers. hmm,, cuma gw yg ngerasa ato emank namanya maksa ga c?? gw kaget loh waktu tiba2 angketnya uda dibagiin. bukannya hal sepenting itu harus dirapatin dulu yaa? truz gw rada keki jga waktu rapat. mmm, mungkin sebaiknya gw ga cerita disini. pkknya gw jdi ngerasa ga enjoy banget deh ikut panitia itu. padahal gw dlu excited banget waktu ditawarin. ROOF taun lalu tuh keren banget. acara itu adalah salah satu acara yang bikin gw berniat buat jadi panitia. gw mau ikut ambil bagian waktu bikin acara sekeren itu.. gw ga nyangka waktu gw uda masuk panitia, ga taunya... ahhh, sudahlah.. mungkin ini jga ngelatih kesabaran gw. gw berdoa aj supaya acaranya bisa sekeren, ato bahkan lebih keren dari taun lalu.

berhubung soal yg diatas jga,, mm, kayaknya gw bakalan ngelamar jdi osis lgi deh taun ini.. masih belom pasti c, gw masih harus liat nilai gw dlu. gw jga harus liat dengan jadwal kepanitiaan gw sekarang, gw masih bisa ngatur waktu ga antara belajar, bersosialisasi, have fun, ngerjain tugas... tapi kalo gw udah mutusin mo ngelamar lgi, yang pasti taun ini gw ga akan dengan begonya salah milih bidang. XP

duhh,, tau ga c,, gw lgi strez banget nih. kayaknya gw mulai ngerasain hal2 yg kayaknya uda lama banget ga gw rasain.. kangeeeennnnnnnn... T.T kayaknya tuh orang bener2 udah berhasil bikin jantung gw idup lgi deh. gw bahkan udah bisa milah2 perasaan gw. seneng, kangen, cemburu.. dlu yang gw rasain cuma sakit. bahkan waktu seharusnya gw seneng, yang gw rasain cuma sakit..

ohh, truz gw jga uda mulai berani liat dia lohh.. wkwkwk. kan tdinya klo dia lgi liatin gw, gw ga berani liat balik. malah akhirnya gw melakukan banyak tindakan bego n konyol. cma sekarang gw uda berani lah lirik2 balik. cma dianya berani banget nihh.. klo gw liatin balik, bukannya dy lsg ngelengos malah dy liatin gw terus.. aaaaaa~~

tpi gw ga tau deh. gw bingung. gw masih ga percaya klo dy sekarang jga ngasih perhatian lebih k gw. apa cuma sampe situ hubungan gw ma dy? cuma sampe perhatian yang sedikit lebih dari orang2 laen? apa ampe lulus gw cuma liat2an terus ama dy? sebenernya sekarang dy tuh kayak gmna c k gw?? dy lgi mikirin gw ga ya sekarang?? dia kangen jga ga ya ama gw???? huaaaaa.. pusinnggggg...

hmmm, sekarang lgu Shy That Way lgi cocok banget nih ma gw..

you know you're stunning, you're absolutely stunning

and I'm running, always running

and now I'm crying and only because I'm caring

and if you were more daring, maybe you stop staring

and come over and talk to me

tell me about how you've been waiting so patiently

and how you tried and I just turned away and I say

yeah, well you know, I'm shy that way...

duhh, kapan gw bisa ngomong lagi ama dy??? huhhhh..

eia. gw lgi ga enak banget nih ma bokap gw. mm, bukan ga enak jga c, mungkin overwhelmed with graditude. kn kmaren gw mo ngestok soft lens gw. berhubung mata gw lgi bengkak banget uda 3 hri ini ga tau kenapa, nyokap gw minta gw beli soft lens yg kualitasnya paling bagus. truz dikasi lah gw merek fresh look. gw kira harganya ga jauh beda lah ma X2 yg biasa gw beli. ga taunya harganya 150 rbu 1 box. parah banget. X2 aja 175 rbu buat 2 box. jadi ada 2 pasang. dan 1 pasangnya bisa dipake 3 bulan. klo fresh look. uda 1 box 150 rbu, 1 pasangnya cma bisa dipake 1 bulan!!!!! parahhh.. truz bokap gw iya2 aja lagi. jdi 300 rbu dy keluarin bwt beli soft lens gw doank. T.T

truz malemnya di hari yang sama, kan gw bis makan diluar, truz didepan restorannya tuh ada stand majalah gtu. kn belakangan ini gw mank sering ngoceh2 soal majalah go girl. nah, waktu di stand itu gw ngeliat majalahnya. waktu gw lgi pegang, ehh tiba2 bokap gw langsung ngebayarin tuh majalah.

yaampunnnnn.. gw jdi ngerasa jdi anak ga berbakti banget. kan itu jga bkan yg pertma kli bokap gw berkorban bwt gw. ngorbanin duit, tenaga, pikiran. truz gw uda ngapain buat orang tua gw?? yang ada malah bikin mereka kesel. ahh, mank anak yang payah nih gw. pkknya gw udah bertekad mo berubah mulai sekarang. X)

eniwei, by the way, busway,, besok gw keluar kota lohh.. wkwkwk. semoga gw ga kebosenan.

ok, bwt ngahirin posting ini, gw mo ngomongin sesuatu. tau Darla di Finding Nemo n Boo di Monster Inc. ga?? cma gw yg otaknya aneh ato mank c darla tuh versi lebih tua n jeleknya boo ga c? ckckck.

Darla

Boo

Eh, ga mirip yaa? ahh, tau ahh. otak gw lgi panas kli.. wkwkwk

au revoir~

k-

Boys vs. Girls

Hari ini gw mo ngebahas sesuatu yang agak menarik. Hmm, mungkin ga terlalu banyak yang bsa gw tulis, tapi dripda gw gatel mo nulis ttg ini terus.. wkwkwk.
Hari ini gw mo nulis ttg perbedaan pikiran cowo dan cewe.. bukan hal yg asing lgi c.. tpi gra2 gw bru ngalamin jga beberapa kejadian, jadi gw tba2 mood tulis deh.. Mmm, gra2 yg gw tulisin bukan dri gw doank, jadi gw jga tulisin sumberny y..

Dari Majalah & Buku..
1. Kalo bilang "Capek"
Artinya bwt cewe: -gw ngantuk. mo tidur.
-gw bosen/uda ga kuat ama keadaan yang sekarang
Kalo bwt cowo: gw mo istirahat

2. soal istirahat

cewe: tidur

cowo: melakukan tindakan yang bikin seger. biasanya ga ngegerakin otot banyak2. tapi bukan tidur.

3. Kalo cowo bilang iya, artinya iya.
Kalo cewe bilang iya, artinya engga.

4. Soal ke WC
Cowo: emang pengen nyetor
Cewe: mau curhat, mau ngaca, mau ngobrol, mau ciprat-cipratan aer,,, dll, dkk, dsb. ohh, dan mungkin mo nyetor jga..

5. Cowo cuma bisa ngelakuin 1 hal di satu waktu. jadi nga ada tuh istilah sambil menyelam minum aer buat mereka. lagi makan ya makan. lagi nonton ya nonton.
Cewe bisa manicure-an sambil nonton TV sambil telpun2an sambil dengerin lagu sambil makan pada waktu yang bersamaan. yang ini udah terbukti ma gw.. wkwkwk

6. Cowo: kalo ditanya tiba2 "kiri ato kanan?!?!!" mereka bisa jawab dengan cepet.
Cewe kalo ditanya pertanyaan yg sama di situasi yang sama harus mikir dulu... dan setelah mikir jga mungkin masih kebalik.. :P


OK, berikutnya mao kasih tau beberapa hal juga...

yg pertma dri miss Nidya.
Cowo tuh suka ngomong ceplas-ceplos n bertindak semaunya. Lama2 kn cewenya ngambek kan.. terus, waktu cowonya sadar n minta maap n cewenya ga mo maapin (gengsi tuhh. wkwk), pasti malah gantian cowonya yang ngambek.. wkwkwk

kedua dari pengalaman gw ma temen gereja gw. dan ini cukup bikin shocking
gw mulai dari cerita dulu deh, baru kesimpulan.

minggu lalu gw disuru jadi usher di gereja bareng temen2 gw. Kn ada yg cowo ada yang cewe tuhh.. Nah, temen gw yg cewe abis di kasi hair remover gtu kakinya, truz waktu kita lagi ngomongin soal itu, tiba2 temen gw yg cowo nimbrung..
Ce: eh, gw bru ksi hair remover loh ke kaki gw
Gw: oya?? ehh.. alus banget jadinya..
Ce: yupp
Co: ihh, bukannya kayak gtu sakit y??
Ce: nga koq, hair removernya ga sakit sama skali. kayak lotion gtu bentuknya..
Co: ngapain c lu ngilang2in gituan?
Ce: kan biar aluuusss..
Co: hah?? buat apaan coba??? (mukanya bener2 bingung n agak shock)
Gw: Mmm,, susah dijelasin lah ke lu.. masalah cewe..
Co: Ohh, yaudah..*senyum* (tampang masih bingung tapi setidaknya udah agak ngerti..)
(30 menit kemudian, yg usher harus bagi2in kertas n pensil. gw lagi nyariin temen gw yang cewe yg tiba2 ilang)
Gw: duh, dia mana c?
Co: tadi kayaknya gw liat dy ke WC deh
Gw: ohh, bentar gw cari.
(gw jalan, truz wktu uda mo sampe WC ketemu ma temen gw yg cewe. tadinya dia pake celana, balik2 pke rok.)
Gw: ehh, uda yuu, qta harus naek.
(balik ke tempat cowo tadi)
Co: dihh, tadi kan lu pke celana, koq tba2 ganti rok c?
Gw: yaiya lah, kan mo muter2 diatas.
Co: ...... Ohh... (kayaknya temen gw uda belajar dari pengalaman pertama. wkwkwk)

Eniwei, inti pengalaman gw adalah....
Cowo tuh BENER2 ga peduli sama penampilan detailnya cewe.
Jadi kalo misalnya diajak ngedate ma cowo, jangan abisin waktu buat nentuin mau pke gelang biru ato gelang ijo, sepatu yg polkadot putih ato garis2, parfum peach ato stroberi, dll, dkk, dsb. cape ati banget ga c klo kejadiannya kayak diatas?? udah kitanya bisa telat, diomelin, ga dipuji2 pula. Asal pake baju maching n cocok bwt suasana pasti dibilang cantik koq.

Ahh, udah deh. capeeee.. belom bikin buletin lagi. mati dah gw..

wit luv,
k-

HAPPY 09.09.09 DAY!!!!!

OK, today's really a MUST blogging momment. ironicly this implicitely say that I think today's more important than the independence day that I forgot completely. (not the day, just to post on that day. you know, celebrating and congratulating and stuff..)
well, there are actually some things I need to update.
firstly,, I've been having some bad dreams recently.
Two days ago, I dreamt that I was kidnapped by some kind of vampire or something like that. The dream happened in some kind of old church in england. Also, I think my hair was pale blonde at that dream. So I don't think I'm being me there. Anyway, while I was kidnapped, the vampire (who has a very sharp and pointy nails, by the way) touched the back of my head and made a motion as if he was brushing my hair. After a while, my head in that dream started to hurt and blood started to drip. I woke up instantly. The scary thing was, when I woke up, the back of my head was painful. Just like if someone scratch some sharp thing onto my scalp. Thankfully it doesn't bleed. Dunno what would happened if it did.
Yesterday, suddenly I felt some kind of pressure on my body while I was sleeping. Then, I don't know if this was part of a dream or it really happened, I woke up and I saw a glance of light-weighted dress just flowing above my bed. Then when I pray, I saw another glance of the same dress flowing, getting out of my room. OK, even if that's a dream, It is BEYOND scary!!!! You know what, I don't want to talk about it anymore.. I'm scared. T.T

Secondly,
I'm getting this semi-constant annoyment from a view things at school this week. Most of it came from one particular person that seems just can't leave me alone. I can't really talk about it so I just pray that God would give me strength and patience throughout the whole thing.

And talk about school, I had some funny expirience too today. but I think the highlight was when I was called for the KIR meeting. It was accounting class and the teacher's name is Mrs. Dwi. I kinda noticed from some time ago that she really likes to say my name 'Dwi', not 'Kirana' like I always write on my test sheet. But today is beyond that. When my friend gave her the permission letter, She said with very loud voice, "Kirana! eh, Dwi!!". Her shout was followed by a loud laughter of my classmates. Well, at least they're not laughing because I've done something foolish. :P

Lastly,,
I think I may have found my first chance to have someone. It's been a roller coaster this view days but I think the stakes are high this time. And I feel kinda weird too. Is this how it feels when you know someone you like likes you back?? Well, whatever it is, it is capable of making me constantly smiling at school earlier. Litterally. I tried to cool it of but the grin just bounce back twice as big. God,, please, please, please, make it work this time. X)
But I gotta tell you, even if it's true that he likes me too, I'm gonna use the old 'pull & loose' for a little while. I need to make sure that he really likes me, vice versa. And I think I want to give him a little revenge for a view very annoying things he's ever done to me. Well, he's not doing that intentionally, I suppose. But part of me says that he did. And a trusted source even said that he's not even serious with her all this time!! Imagine all of my wasted time crying over spilt milk that he's with another girl when there's nothing actually happened between them! So, I think to tease him is the most discreet thing to do.
Even so, I think it's still too early to think that. Can't even count how many times I flew to the highest cloud and turned out it's just my overactive imagination. Like they say, The higher you are, the more pain you feel when you fall.

OK then, I think that's it for today. Happy 09.09.09 day, everyone!!!
*btw, I set the clock to post at 09:09 too. lol.

Yours Truly,
K-

Guess Who

hmm, sebenernya gw lagi kurang mood nulis blog nih. tapi yasudahlah..
eh ia, gw uda tau loh.. ternyata mank bukan dy yg manggil gw waktu itu. hmm, klo gtu spa yaa? tapi gw bingung banget nih. kayaknya gw ga bsa lupain dy gitu aj dh. lagian, klo gw lupain, yg ada gw malah bsa demen ma remora lgi dunk.. uhh, uda keki gw ma dy.. kayaknya bentar lgi gw uda illfeel deh. uda mulai menjadi2 lgi dy.. tadi pke sok buka2 baju lgi dy didepan gw. apa2an c..
Duh, beberapa ari ini kacau banget nih. mulai dari kesabaran gw yg cepet abis ampe banyak hal penting yg gw lupain.
gw lupa kerjain tugas agama, lupa bawa buku sos, lupa bawa buku mat, lupa klo temen gw minta tolong ma gw.. Yang paling parah gw lupa buat minjem cat perancis yg waktu gw ga masuk. Akibatnya fatal, gilaa.. tadi essay prancis gw cengo sama sekali. untung kmaren gw bru bca bku Lost in Love yg 1/2 isinya adalah percakapan di cafe. tapi gw tetep lupa beberapa bagian penting c.. ahh, sudah lah..
truz hari ini gw baru menerima 2 tugas penting loh. gw ditawarin bikin karya tulis kelompok yg bakalan dilombain. kalo nanti kel qta masuk final, nanti qta ke bali.. buat presentasiin apa yg uda qta bikin. kayak semacem sidang skripsi gtu.. duhh, ke balinya c boleh. presentasinya itu loh.. XP truz bis itu gw jga ditawarin jdi dekornya ROOF. klo yang ini c dengan senang hati gw terima.. haha. btw, ROOF tuh taun ini ato taun depan c??
ohh,, truz kmaren.. gw tebak2an ma c Della soal yg dia demen. dy kan kasi petunjuk, truz gw kasih pertnyaan2 n gw harus nebak 3 nama. nah,, abis itu, gw kira c della mo ngasi tau gw. ga taunyaa, gw diboongin!!! antiklimaks banget c.. Della parah ihhh!! pdahal gw uda ngasi tau c nintendo.. tapi dia salah liat c.. wakakakk..
eh iaa.. truz kn kmaren gw cerita soal dia kakinya cedera. gw liat belakangan ini dy jalannya uda normal lgi.. yeaaa~ tapi koq belakangan ini malah kaki gw yg kena bencana mulu y??? duhh, jangan2 sakitnya ketransfer lgi.. yahh,, seengganya dy uda gpp. huaaa,, bener2 pengen ngobrol ma diaaaaa.. hikz2
btw, tadi gempanya parah yakhh.. tdinya kirain gw mau pingsan.. semuanya muter gtu..

Boys. Sport. Heart. (Break?)

Gw bingung ama pikiran cowo.. bner2 bingung.
Kaki dia lagi cedera. Cedera akut. hari minggu lalu gw liat dia cuma pincang dikit. tapi dua hari yang lalu gw liat dia buat naek tangga aja uda pegangan ke sisi tangga n uda keseok2. tangannya juga uda megangin kaki terus. gw kira dia bakal istirahat sampe kakinya sembuh dulu.

tapi tadi gw liat dia paling terakhir naek abis dia pel OR. artinya dia maen dulu ama temen2nya waktu dikasi waktu luang. kenapa dia ga istirahat? gengsi cowo tuh setinggi itu ya? bukan baru kali ini aja gw ngeliat cowo yg tetep maksain OR walopun kakinya cedera hampir permanen. bukan pertama kali gw peratiin ada cowo yang pincang ampe lama banget gra2 maksain kakinya walopun lagi cedera.

huh, tapi mungkin gw berhak ngomong gtu. gw tau klo OR tuh udah kayak shopping ato dandan buat cowo. gw jga tau klo dia mungkin uda tau limit dirinya sendiri. gw jga tau klo pergaulan sekarang bakalan ngata2in, seengga2nya ngegodain seorang cowo klo dia cuma duduk waktu pel OR. Atau mungkin memang dia udah ngerasa lebih baik. Tapi seharusnya dia lebih peratiin dirinya sendiri kan?? Kenapa dia lebih milih nahan rasa sakit yang lebih lama daripada sabar buat nunggu sembuh total? Apa dia ga peduli buat orang2 yang khawatir ngeliat dia begitu??

Sekali lagi, mungkin gw ga berhak ngomong gtu. mungkin kalo dia baca ini, mungkin dia bakalan bilang kalo gw kepo. ikut campur urusan orang. Dia nga minta gw khawatirin. Mungkin dia bakal ketawa kalo tau gw begini, khawatirin dia, orang yang sama sekali gw ga kenal.

Apa gw akan dikasi kesempatan ma Tuhan buat kenal dia? Gw ga bisa begini terus. Gw ga bisa suka orang yang hampir ga gw kenal sama sekali. Gw ga bisa cuma ngereka2 sifat2nya, dan akhirnya jatuh cinta ke bayangan yang gw ciptain di kepala gw.

Apa gw harus lebih berusaha?? Tapi gw udah keilangan semua percaya diri gw, semua keberanian gw buat ngedeketin cowo yg gw suka. Semuanya selalu kacau. selalu. Akhirnya semua malah bikin gw makin terpuruk. semakin lama semakin dalem. Walopun setiap kali gw udah berpikir kalo gw ga akan bisa jatuh lebih dalem lagi.

Apa dia emang ga tepat buat gw? Padahal, gw udah lama ga ngerasa kayak gini ke orang. Ke orang2 yang gw suka sebelumnya, waktu gw ngeliat mereka, yang gw rasain cuma rasa sakit. cuma kesedihan. Tapi waktu gw liat dia,, walopun rasanya samar2, tapi rasanya mirip sama waktu pertama kali gw jatuh cinta. waktu gw kira semuanya masih indah. Waktu gw liat dia, gw ngerasa kalo ada lagi tanda2 kehidupan di hati gw, yang selama ini gw kira udah bener2 mati rasa gra2 terlalu sering ngerasain sakit.

Apa gw masih terlalu naif? Ga tau lah. Tapi gw akan cari kepastian. Apa bener dia yang manggil gw waktu itu.

Tapi walopun iya, gw bisa apa? Walopun beneran dulu gw kenal ma dia, dan 2 bulan lalu dia masih inget dan manggil gw, tapi dia sekarang kayaknya bener2 ga kenal ma gw. Dan dia cuma peratiin gw karena dia sadar kalo gw meratiin dia, bukan gra2 memang dia mau meratiin gw..

Uhh, sudahlah. otak gw udah panas. Gw ga bisa terus buang2 waktu gw buat cowo yang ga berani gw deketin. Yang ga bisa gw dapetin. Kalo memang gw harus lupain dia, pasti gw bisa lupain dia. pasti. Tapi buat sekarang,,...

gw cuma berdoa supaya cederanya bisa cepet sembuh. That's all..

Being number one..

Y'all wanna know something?? I'm so tired of being number two, number eleven, or number I don't know how much. It hasn't really been such a big deal till a view days ago. It was all started when the english teacher announced the scores of the first english test. My tenses got 97 and my reading got 100. Although my classmates almost didn't react when the scores were read, I was pretty happy to heard that. But then, there's a kid who's got 100 for both part, and the class AND the teacher were cheering for that kid. What's up with that?!?!! I just made one stupid and silly mistake in the tenses part and it's like I don't even exist. Since that moment, I suddenly think about many things and I came up with one conclusion. I REALLY WANT to be number one. I want to master something and being able to teach everyone what I can. I want to have a perfect score so that I can prove to everyone what I'm made of. I want to have something that I can be really proud of. And most importantly, I want to be number one in the heart of the person that's also number one in my heart. There's so much that I wanna be, yet I can't seem to make that happen. But you know, yesterday I remembered something.
Two weeks ago, the art teacher gave us a clay project. He told us to make a design, then to make the actual thing by clay precisely according to that design. I think I let my imagination ran too wildly, and I made a design of stacks of boxes and shopping bags (still in shopaholic-mood at that moment). I though I can do it easily, but soon I had problems. I started to ask my friends, "do you think this design is too much?". One of my friend says that it's very hard to make, with all of the details and complicated arangement of the boxes. But then another friend of mine said, "She can do it if she want to..".
Now when I think of it, that comment was probably the highest and the most inspiring compliment I have ever accepted. I CAN do it if I want to. but sometimes I'm just too lazy or too full of excuses. Sometimes I just gave up before even started to do something. So that stops now. From now on, I will be commited of what I'm doing, and that includes writing on this blog. :P

But apart from all of this crap about wanting to be number one, I really don't like it when I'm praised for something I don't deserve. being complimented is one thing. Taking somebody else's credit is a whole other thing. And I get that a lot lately. Like today, when it's time to paint the clay. I though I screwed it up by putting the wrong color to one of the bag and made the whole colors uneven. But somehow the teacher looked at my clay and told some of my art classmates that what I'm making is very good. I would be very happy to have heard that if I though that too. But I don't. Because my friend right next to me made THE most beautiful, the most realistic, the most amazing clay statue I have ever seen. She made a little girl. Her dress was so realistic that you could mistook it as a real fabric. Seriously. And what's more iritating is that some of my classmates came over my table to looked at my clay. Even some of 'em teased me for making 'the best clay statue in the whole class'. This is freakishly confusing. But I guess now it just moved me to really make the best clay statue there is. well, it doesn't really have to be the best. Just something that I can call one of my masterpieces. (remember my mario bros??)

btw, I was told by my friend that I have a very captivated and unique personality. And I can attract MANY boys if I can just loosen up my unreasonable panic attacks. well,,... good luck with that. lol. Also, I don't think I really want to make many boys to like me. I think,, I just want to make ONE particular subject of those sub-species that does. -^^-
Now I just need to figure out how. I mean, I don't even know him.
hmmmm....

Independence. Dream. Day @ School. FT.

Beberapa hari ini bener2 extraordinary. Ok, gw mulai dari kemaren dulu. kn kemaren perayaan 17 agustusan. sebelumnya ul mat. hmm, kayaknya lumayan sukses ulangan gw. haha. eniwey, bis ulangan kan upacara dlu. awal2nya c bagus. Cuma waktu uda mo selesai, tiba2 diselak pengumuman. secara kemaren tuh bener2 lagi panas2nya, jadi barisan bubar semua. ada yang ngobrol, ada yang lari ke TK buat teduhan. itu masih upacara loh. yahh, sudahlah.. sapa suru lagi panas2 kasi pengumuman. klo pengumumannya wkt kebaktian jga lebih dihargai. nah, abis upacara tuh class meeting. cma gra2 mank gw ga ikut lomba, gw bikin sarang di kelas. sampe pulang. bosen banget gw kemaren. tapi ada beberapa pemandangan indah lewat c.. wakakakk..
pulangnya, seperti biasa gw maen komputer. dapet jarahan game baru dari temen pula. truz waktu menjelang sore kn harusnya gw mulai belajar bwt ulangan KN hari ini (yang ngomong2 gw baru dapet pelajarannya 1x, itu juga grunya ngajarnya ga efektif banget) tapi entah kenapa gw kayak ga niat gerak. kira2 itu jem 6an. akhirnya gw keramas, bis itu sikat gigi, pkknya semua yg gw kira bisa bikin gw segeran. tapi tetep aja gw ga niat gerak. well, pada akhirnya gw baru bisa belajar jem 10an. itu jga ga konsen banget. bayangin aja, masa 1 kalimat 1 paragraf penuh. apa yang bisa diserep coba???
trz uda gtu, malemnya, gw ngigo. tapi bukan ngigo serem. entah kenapa belakangan ini gw tuh suka mimpi aneh. dan dalem mimpi itu gw jga kayak masih setengah sadar. waktu dalem mimpi itu gw masih bisa tau posisi tidur gw sekarang diranjang. entah gw lagi meluk guling, ato malah lagi ngeringkuk di ujung. rasanya kayak pikiran gw ga tidur sama skali. badan gw mank istirahat, tapi otak n pikiran gw tetep jalan kayak lagi bangun. hiyy, serem jga yaa..
teruz, ari ini, hmm.., ulangan KNnya lumayan lah. tapi gw ga isi 3 dan 2 soal pasti salah. tapi jawaban yang laen gw lumayan yakin c. Nah, abis ulangan KN nih yg gila. kn gw setiap ari sekarang bwa hape gra2 insiden di post sebelum ini. biasanya tuh hape gw matiin. cuma emang mungkin gw masih sempoyongan ato gmna, tdi hapenya tuh gw silent doank. nah, waktu pelajaran agama abis ulangan, tiba2 ada suara hape bunyi. tepatnya lagu butterfly dari Jason Mraz. 1 kelas langsung diem gtu kn. waktu itu tuh dalem pikiran gw "ihh, itu hape spa yaa yg bunyi, pasti ngefans Jason Mraz jga dh. ringtonenya jga bisa sama lgi ama lagu weker gw. hahaha" nah, setelah beberapa detik, tiba2 gw curiga. jangan2 hape gw lagi yang bunyi. jadi gw buka tas gw dikit, truz gw pegang hape gw. beneran aja, waktu gw sentuh hape gw, suaranya langsung tambah kenceng. OMG! gila gw langsung gemeteran y. kalo gw berusaha matiin tuh hape suaranya malah makin kenceng n ketauan hape gw yg bunyi, kalo gw diemin aja tuh hape jga psti akhirnya sama. jadi akhirnya gw belesekin aja tuh hape diantara buku2, n suaranya jadi keredam dikit c. dan untung pada saat yang sama di kelas yg uda diem banget sambil celingak celinguk,, c Daryn tereak. "WOI! semua ribut woi!!" dan beneran langsung semua berceloteh ria. well, sebenernya ngomongin soal hape itu jga c, tapi suara lagunya bener2 keredam lah.
setelah kira2 1 menitan, wekernya berenti bunyi. (thx God!!). gila y, dlu gw pernah ngeluh dalem ati gra2 lagu yg 3menitan dipotong wkt uda 1 menit, gw ga tau kalo itu malah yang bakalan nyelametin hape gw dari disita. eniwey, abis gw mastiin lagunya bener2 mati, langsung gw matiin tuh hape. fiuhh.. selamat deh.. oh ia,, terus, selama hape gw bunyi itu,, a chris tuh kyk pura2 ga denger gtu. gw kira dia emang lagi berbaik hati y, pura2 ga denger. cuma tuh waktu abis pelajaran dia, kn gw nyamperin tmn gw yg di barisan kiri ujung, truz gw bilang klo yg bunyi tuh hape gw. mereka malah cengo semua. TERNYATA, entah kenapa barisan paling ujung yg jga tpt gru duduk, GA ADA yang denger lagu. bahkan mereka kira Daryn tereak gtu gra2 kelasnya tuh sepi banget. koq bsa gtu y?? padahal di barisan gw kenceng banget. hmm, mungkin Tuhan bae banget ma gw, ngasih semacem tirai yang ga bisa ditembus suara hape gw, biar hape gw selamat. Ato mungkin buat nunjukin ke gw kuasaNya, biar gw tobat. wkwkwk
nah, selama sekolah, ada kira2 3-4 jem kosong. klise kehidupan anak ips.. huhh.. pkknya tuh waktu di skul pikiran gw kayak ngambang2.. kayak mo pingsan gtu.. mungkin efek mimpi aneh gw kli yaa.. ato mungkin masih trauma soal insiden hape.
Pulang2, gw ga pulang dlu, ada rapat. wekkeekekekekk.. oh ia, ngomong2 soal rapat,, ada yang mo gw ralat. Kn kemaren gw bilang gw jadi koor. SMAK 5 cup, ternyata gw kesaru ama Liga SMAK 5. yang gw atur tuh Liga Smak 5. klo SMAK 5 cup tuh terbuka untuk umum, kalo liga tuh cuma diskul doank. yahh, gapapa lah. Start Small. Jangan baru2 uda dikasi kerjaan gede. kalo gagal gw terpuruknya bisa lebih dalem. Oh, dan gw jga uda dimasukin tim dekor SMAK 5. tinggal nunggu persetujuan walas. Dan gw jga kayaknya mau ikut seleksi kepanitiaan di SMAK 5. cuma gw masih mikir2 c.. Takutnya kalo gw ikut kebanyakan acara semuanya juga jadi keteteran. termasuk nilai2 gw. Dan juga ada faktor wawancara. Kalo misalnya ampe itu panitia harus wawancara, mending gw langsung mundur deh. Walopun waktu gw tanya katanya kemungkinan wawancara kecil banget. Dan kalopun ada wawancara, Della bilang dia nanti minta jadi tim wawancara biar gw lebih rileks, gw harus mikir2 dlu deh. masih rda strez mikirin wawancara terakhir gw taun lalu. wkwkwk
Uda dlu deh, gw harus siap2. Besok FIELD TRIP!!!! Sebelnya IPA n IPS dipisah. IPA ke Cimory n IPS ke sebuah desa di Bogor bernama Cinangneng. Kata temen gw, disitu kegiatannya nanem padi di sawah, mandiin kebo, nanak nasi, bikin kue,.....
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EH!
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MANDIIN KEBO??!??!!

ARE YOU FREAKIN' KIDDING ME??!?! gila aj, yg ipa minum susu dengan gembira di Cimory n yg ips kerjaannya MANDIIN KEBO. duhh, sudahlah nasib. mungkin nanti keseluruhannya seru. mungkin jga gw jadi mempunyai hobi baru yaitu mandiin kebo (mungkin ga c? --"). well, berdoa aja ternyata anak ipa di cimory kerjaannya merah susu. wkwkwk. sudahlah..
byebye.