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Selasa, 26 Januari 2010

Trendsetter

OK, I think I gain a little more confidence. I actually uploaded my designs to facebook 2 days ago and I got quite many possitive review. and I already put hair on my drawings so I guess it's time to upload the pictures to here too.. ok then, here goes..


awesome isn't it? especially the last one. you know, the funny thing about the last design was that it was supposed to be the back side of the design above it. and I only do a very rough sketch for the figure. But after making the bow and the skirt, I suddenly thought that it was way to good to be a back side of something, so I made a new design instead.

but despite of all of the satisfaction,, I think this would be the last time I upload my drawings on this blog. I just feel that it's too commercial. And it feels like I boast for something I'm don't even really master. And also I made this blog in the first place to show my feelings and emotion that I couldn't tell or show to anyone else. So IF I am ready to be a fashion blogger I will probably make another blog just for that.

And there's actually something I want to tell you about related to this thing. Well, I think we can established that I am a super-sensitive person who can exagerate even the most unimportant thing. SO lets put a pin on it for a minute and pretend that I wasn't exagerating.

the last view days I felt weird. It's like I'm not even me anymore. I've made way more friends in those very short moment. But I realized that I also became easier to be upset with someone and I wasn't as affraid as I used to to show it. And I actually KNOW why am I upset with those people. I realized that I don't like it when people are childish, selfcentered and inconsiderate. And somehow there are A LOT of people with that criteria. Just with different amount of portion and fortunatelly almost all of them are barely noticable. But the problem is the people with the amount of portion that is hardly bearable. Arghh, I don't even know how to explain it. And I can't. Because every now and then people actually read this blog and if the wrong person decided to read my blog in the wrong time that person is going to tell the person I was dying to tell you about. All that I can say is that I hate people who ACT or even BELIEVE that they are kind but actually hurt people. people that IS kind. ughh,, there's just so much I need tell. I guess I just have to get it out another way. ugh, way to have a blog. you know I made this blog because I was a very unimportant person back then and I thought, "sure, I'll just make a blog. Who am I anyway? No one is going to be interested with my blog". Well that just bite me right back, doesn't it? Ugh, I guess I'll just have to move on to the next thing. Well, it's about the title actually. You know, since I was little, I ever dreamt about being a trendsetter. heck, maybe every girl has ever dreamt about it. I mean, I just thought that it would be cool if everyone doing or wearing similiar things because of me. I just never expected that even the tiniest portion of it would be this... iritating. again, stick a pin to my exageration. and again, I can't really tell you what exactly I'm talking about. I guess there's such thing as insecure people. I just need to find another way to get all of this out. maybe I'll just go to the counceling room.

And there's actually something else I need to tell. I failed to join the student commite. again. And it is mainly my fault, really. I wasn't ready. Or I've been asking my information from the wrong person. You know, I just found out today that there was actually a one-year-plan paper for last year's commite. it got all of the information from all of the area. including the area I applied. there were all this programme and even who's in charge of the programme. I wasn't blaming anybody, really. Maybe the paper mustn't be leaked for all of the applients. And the people who got in really deserve it. It just made me think. If I knew about this paper, and it made me a lot more ready to face the interview, would I be the one who got in? I guess I'll never know. And my chances are up too, anyway. So let's just forget about it.

haha, so much for even try to be possitive, aren't I??

a person who's strugling to be the person she want's to be.

K-

Minggu, 24 Januari 2010

Fashion 101

hi blog.
today I was planing to make this post about fashion. mm,, I'm having second thoughts.
Actually I want to upload my creations from looket and my own drawings. but the drawings are still screwed and need some touch-ups. I guess today I'm just gonna upload my drawing..

aaa,, confident much??!? ugh, I guess I'm not ready to have anything to do with fashion if I don't even have the confidence to upload my own creations. for all of my friends whom already done this kind of stuff before me, or even have already became a fashoin blogger, I salute you. you girls are just awesome for even have the courage to do it. and you guys are really awesome too..
hmph, you know what, never mind. there's a first time for everything, right? this is my style and I like it. the drawings still coming later, though. there's something that doesn't feel right and one of em doesn't even have hairs yet. And who knows, maybe I'll have enough confedence to put on my own photos..
ok, here goes. the pictures position are based on which I made first.
n.b. ignore the names of the issue. I know I do.. lol
n.b. 2 if you read this, please, please, please, comment. I would mean the world to me. well, I may have slightly exagerate about the world part, but you know what I mean...

OK, then, I think that's all for today.. I'll try to give more of this kind of post to this blog.. and this will be the first post since I made this blog to have tags on them. yeeyyyy~ lol, talk about gatting excited about unnessesary things..

TTFN~
K-

Jumat, 22 Januari 2010

condescendingly

Hi blog.
OK, maybe today's blog post has absolutely nothing to do with the title. but recently I've been crazy about that particular word. I'll tell you why in a moment.
well, this was actually supposed to be posted right after the post before this.. you know, the one which I said would be filled with loads of idiocity? well, late is better than nothing at all, right? lol
Ok, straight to the main point then.. So, whom could it possibly that I'm telling you about if I'm talking about idiocity? well, the real question is, whom else? He's the only one who can make me feel this weird, sensitive, stupid feeling. you're probably tired of keep hearing about him, and believe me, I'm also tired of typing anything else about him. but this time's quite an important term of event and I really need to get it out.
well,, I think I found out something something about him recently. It's like he's subsconciously keep pulling me everytime I tried to forget about him. It's like he pushed me to keep liking him, then marched his love affairs with her in front of my nose. Let to see my became miserable and alone. the same accident involving this topic happened twice. both including the same three parties, and the same stairs. It would be such a long story if I tell both but in an eggshell, I was both smiling at someone in both incident when he suddenly either right in front of me or walking exactly between the both of us. of course both incident ended with me looked like smiling at him. ugh, I just can't describe his face expression. it's like he saw a dead rat all covered with blood and intestants inside out with maggots all over it. and to top all of these things, I actually done a VERY stupid thing at smak 5 cup. so, basicly I was talking -loudly- about him, half saying that I want to talk to him; half just calling him names for ignoring me. then I didn't really remember why I did it but I looked back, and there he was, staring at me. It ruined me pretty badly. I can't sleep for 2 days and I didn't even dare to catch a glance of him for the whole week.
thankfully the moment had passed for it's been 2 weeks since it happened. surprisingly we're back to our staring state. but this time we are more frontal about our stare. and none of us look away. maybe it's because the reason was no longer fascination but hatred and prestige. I just don't know what to do anymore. it's not like I can be with him if I keep this feeling. And even if there's a miracle happened and we are together, it's not like we're gonna last long. he's leaving next year. every possibilities hit a dead end but I just can't completely get him out of my life.
eh. what the heck.

OK, about the title now.. I'm recently crazy about John Mayer. X) I think he's a really good musician. I was listening to one of his song which I rated weird at first but after I know what it's about, it directly became one of my favourite songs. The song entitled 'No Such Thing'. It has a weird begining because the intro was quite mellow and it suddenly turned into an upbeat song. But it what makes it unique I guess. The song is about just taking it easy and not to be a too obidient person. here, I'll just give you the lyrics so you'll know what it's really about.

No Such Thing
by. John Mayer
"Welcome to the real world", she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I'd like to think the best of me
Is still hiding up my sleeve
They love to tell you stay inside the lines
That something's better on the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
just a lie you've got to rise above
So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can't find the answers
And all of our parents
They're getting older
I wonder if they've wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you stay inside the lines
But something's better on the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above
I am invincible (x3)As long as I'm alive
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
I just found out there's no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you've got to rise above
I just can't wait til my 10 year reunion
I'm gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for
So, you see where did I get this "condescendingly" madness? (check the second line) lol
condescedingly means to behave as if you think you are better than everyone else. it's a retty deep word isn't it? what's what I love about american singers. they take their songs seriously.
Ahh, another thing about american greatness. Their TV series. I watched Gossip Girl recently and I think it was just awesome. I know I'm like 2 years late but, again, batter late than never, right? :P
OK, I thnk that's all for today.. I'm really sleepy right now..
X.O.X.O.
K-

Selasa, 12 Januari 2010

travel "around the world"

Happy New Year!! sorry I'm 12 days late. I was too enjoying the last days of holiday that I don't get a chance to write on blog. I think today I'm gonna need two post to tell about what happened recently. this part one is the happy part. the part where I told the story about my holiday in malaysia.. the second one will be more dreadful, and full of idiocity. well, here goes..
As I may recall, I went to malaysia on the 29th. After I arrived, the tour guide dirrectly assist us to genting highlands. It was one of the most amazing, and the coldest place I've ever visited. Thank goodness I wore my boots with me.. You know, when I first got to malaysia, it was in KL, and it's like 100 degrees in there so I looked like a really stupid country girl or something. But when I got to Genting, I was the only one in my family who doesn't complain about the cold. well, at least not yet. Genting's really suitable to be called highlands. It is litterally above the clouds. you know, I was actually wondering on the plane what it's like to be on the clouds.. After this trip, there's nothing to wonder anymore. I personally felt what it's like to be IN the clouds. nothing's too special, really.. turns out clouds are simillar to fogs in many way.
anyway, I stayed for two days in Genting and I found some fascinating things there. You know there are SO many cute guys there. And there's one that I particularlly like. he's a waiter at a restaurant. And he's definitely my type. tall, good looking, wear glasses, thin, easy-going, and he has this heavy-calming voice. and he's a waiter so he's very skillful. nice too.
well, with all the cute-boys aside, I really enjoyed my time there.. And my cousin introduced me to the most delicious drink in the world. Blended caramel cream from Starbucks.. mmm...

and I also took some picture and somehow they don't look like malaysia much. It's like I traveled around the world.. lol


Oh, and I also expirienced, maybe one of the dullest new year's in my life. it started out great, really.. me, my sis, and two of my cousin went to a cafe and ordered some drinks. there's even a bit riot because we thougth we were locked in a mall (it was 10.30 and there were nobody else there). But then we found an exit and we laughed in releave. But at about 11.30 we were bored and a bit disturbed by the situation there. in the place the so-called DJ only played up-beat songs like I gotta feeling and boom boom pow and played it over and over again.. Please, even I can do better than that! So we decided to go back to the hotel room and watch the fireworks from my cousin's room because her room got the twin towers view. The plan was actually to celebrate new year together but somehow our parents stayed on the lobby. So, there we are.. three girls who watched fireworks from a hotel room. Try to lightened up the mood by drinking from alchohol glass (it was filled with mineral water.. =P). The fireworks beautiful though..

I also bought a view things on the trip. I buy a new purse, a jeans vest by mango, a t-shirt from esprit, and a very cute velvet bag.

hmm,, I guess that's all I wanna talked about for now.. the second part's coming tomorrow.

night.