Roller Coaster Ride

It's been like a roller coaster to me recently. And I found out about a shocking news yesterday afternoon and I've been in a bad mood since. there's actually so many things I want to say but it's all tangled up in my mind so I don't really know how to spit it out point by point.
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well, school is starting to get nuts due to the final test for 12th grade that's coming up. there's so many assigments but I really don't want to do it. And this time there's nothing pushing me to study harder and be more dilligent. you know how my mother used to say that I'm so lazy and stupid? that really pissed me off and I studied like crazy because I thought if my grede's are up then she would shut up. As you all know I became the 2nd best in the class on the last semester. well,, she shut up about that, all right but what I don't expect is that she starts whinning about something else. Now she is crazy about keeping my grades and making it better if it's possible. And she just found out that in some university the first and second best in school will get a 50% discount for the admission fee. But what I really can't believe is that she actually uses God to make me obey her. She said that in life we have to obey God and making parents happy is one of the things that God says. And if I save up some money for univ it would make her happy. So to sum up if I save up money I am obeying God's word. Seriously I don't even know what's right anymore after hearing that.
umm,, and the thing that really made my mood drop yesterday.. I still can't figure out a way to talk about it yet. And to tell you the truth, I don't want to talk about it. It's been too long since I first talked about it. I just really don't understand why am I so disturbed when I found out. I want this to end. And I thought it HAD end. Maybe that's why I was shocked yesterday. And maybe the other factor is the way I found out. It's as if he wanted to brag about his victory. But not even his world is that perfect. His plan must take a little detour because of an unexpected inccident. Or maybe not so unexpected if what my friend think is true. Well, me and my friend is having a bet about it. I think his plan would ends well and she thinks otherwise. So we're having a bet and the winner is going to be treated. But if I win, I won't claim my reward. If his plans goes well then it would definitely be the end for all of this disaster, and that's all I'm asking for. But then again, maybe I'm too naive. Maybe it will get worse instead. Well, I guess only time will tell..
In the mean time, I guess I should talk about something that makes my mood good too.
Well,, I think a karma caught up with me.
Since the 8th grade, all of my friends became crazy about suju, DBSK, 2PM, BigBang, etc, etc, etc. And since I could remember, I used to mock them ALL THE TIME. I was the girl who instantly shuts up in a conversation when korean popsingers is on the topic. I was the girl who rolls up my eyes everytime I heard someone talk so eagerly about how gorgeous the band members are. And I never been able to distingquish the faces of the singers. They seemed to have the same face to me.
Well,, I think now I become one of them. lol.
My sister went home from work one day and she suddenly listens to a korean song and laughing crazily at a movie she brought home. Turns out she's infected with the Super Junior desease. And it finally caught up with me too. It's just that they're so funny! They're in many shows and it just makes me laugh non stop. litteraly. what I like best are Exploration of Human Body (EHB) and Intimate note. sadly SuJu is having a rough time recently. There're even rumors that they're splitting up. I hope that will never happen. T.T ugh, if I knew I would be like this I would just be their fans years ago. I'm 5 years late, for crying out loud!
mm, OK then, I guess that's all for today. I'm going to my granny's house to celebrate an early chinese new year. And valentine's coming up too (ugh), so I need to buy some chocolate for my friends. This year, to avoid dissapointment from getting less chocolate than I give, I asked my friends to exchange chocolate with me instead. haha, lets find out how that went. ttyl.
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