This Year's Last Posting. *Happy Christmas!*

Hi blog. It's me again. Before I start talking about something else, I just wanna say
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!! GBU all~ X)
sorry I was late to tell this. but anyway, don't you think it's a bit weird that I typed 'happy' instead of 'merry'? well, if you don't know it yet, people from USA said merry and british people said happy. But I didn't typed 'happy' because I wanna follow the british culture (though british english is very unique and the accent is unbelievebly sexy. lol). I just think that happy is a more sutable word to be paired with christmas. when I hear the word 'merry', I think about party, gathering of people. It describes a situation where there's a lot of celebration. I'm not here to preach you or anything, and I'm not saying that celebration is a bad thing, but please! that's completely contast with the origin of christmas itself! what about people that is fighting to survived on the streets? what about people who can't even say to their children that they don't have anymore money to buy food? can they say 'merry'? so I think 'happy' is the right word to say.. and that's what christmas is about. christmas is about the birth of our savior, Jesus Christ. And even if you got a whole bunch of troubles, you can still feel the joy that it brings.
OK, I guess that's all about christmas.. man, what got into me, until I can write all of this. haha
Moving to the next highlight then..
You know, this post is a new inovation for me. This is the first post that was written first on my mobile phone then copied to the web on computer. Why, you asked, did I do such useless thing? Well, that's because I have a weirder sleeping disorder lately. I rarely sleep at night now. Not because I don't want to, but because I'm having such weird dreams, they make me fell so uncomfortable while I sleep. I ended up waking up for several times during the nights. You know that feeling when you're sleeping but it's like your mind is still running so you got the feeling that you're still awake? Yeah, that's what I feel every night. EVERY NIGHT. It really sucks, because now I live like bats. I wake up at nights and sleep at afternoons. I hope this would all just stop. Maybe I should eat some sleeping pills or something..
By the way, I tried to go on detox yesterday. It got screwed up big time. rofl =P. Well,, it actually started of great. I woke up at 11 so I don't have to eat breakfast, then my mother give me some steamed carrot for me to eat. At first I really like the carrots. I felt sweet. But after half of it, I started to hate the taste. It's really really weird. But I ate three quarters anyway. then my mother gave me the biggest fuji apple I've ever seen. And I don't know if it's breaking the rule or not, but I also drink a glass of cold milk too. The first drop of the milk is like seeing an oasis in the desert. haha, OK, maybe I exagerated, but it really does taste good. After that I decided to go for a nap. I woke up about 3 hours later and I really felt sick at that time. my throat is sore, my lips are dry, and my stomach kinda hurt. After about 30 minutes, of struggling, I just lost it. I ran to my mother's room to grab korean instant noodles and cooked it right away. After I finnished eating it, I saw that my father is eating gado-gado and tahu telor. So I just dig in to that too.. To sum up, my detox was a complete failure. lol.
By the way, I think this would be the last post for the year.. I'm going to malaysia on the 29th and will be returned on january the 2nd. Thank you for listening to me fussing and whinning for this whole year. I hope you can deal with me again next year. lol.
I guess I'll be off now. starting to get sleepy. nighty-night my sweet blog.. ^^


N.B. my mother just barge in to my room. I thought she was just checking if I'm already asleep, but then she went into my sister's room. Thank God I need to pee suddenly(my room doesn't have restroom so I have to go to my sis's), coz when I got to the room, my mother just flip out and trying to hide something from me. I didn't see it, but I got a very strong feeling when I see the color and how small the thing my mother took. She directly got out from my sister's room, still trying to hide it, and I followed her. She got to her room and tried to closed the door, but I just pushed the damn thing open and I took it from my mother's hands. It was my sister's cell phone.
me and my sister's SO CALLED mother is trying to read every sms and calls from my sister's phone. How snoopy is that??!? ->(snoopy as in 'kepo' in indonesian, not snoopy the dog. =P)
After I got the phone I ran to my room and locked the door immediately because my mother's chasing me.
Now I remembered she and my sister had a big fight about a month ago because my sister saw two missed calls on 4 a.m.(!!!) from her cell to the stupid ridiculous guy that my mother tries to set her up with. My sister clearly said that she doesn't like him from the very begining. And he doesn't seem to be intrested too with my sister (besides the fact that he told his parents that he like my sister. or does his parents tries to set him up too?? ugh, I don't care which, both just make his parents stupid and ridiculous too). At first my mother lied to save her ass. But, as always, her stories changed everytime she tells it and she finally confessed that she "accidentally" called him. twice.
So this means tonight is not the first time my mother stole my sister's cell. and to think that it happened since about a month ago. Seriously, WHAT IS HER PROBLEM??!? She doesn't have the right to do that, even if she's our mother. HUMAN NEEDS PRIVACY. She always meddle on everthing (and by everything, I mean, EVERYTHING) in our live but this is completely over the line.
hmm, I think I'm going to have a new phobia if this keeps on.. Right now I'm already terrified that I'm gonna go through the exact same thing when I'm 22 or so and don't have a boyfriend. But, I already decide that if it does happen, I'm gonna move out immediately. I will be working by then and I can take my own steps. Or maybe I'll be working on other country coz all my dad talks about now is sending me off to aussie for univ.. One way or another, I will not just stand by if I'm treated like how my sister is treated now.
OK, I think I'm too excited to write about this.. It was supposed to be a note and it's probably longer that the actual post. maybe I should rethink on when I could use the term 'N.B.' on this blog..
alrighty then, this time's for real. I'm off now. But I don't think I'll be sleeping a view moments after this. my mother's still checking every now and then if I'm asleep yet so she can continue.. ugh, I don't even know what it's called.

you know what, this is just to much for me. I need some sleep.
bye.
muachh
-k ^^