Living prove that LOVE DOESN'T EXIST!

ok, gw keteteran lagi.. ckckck. yasuw deh.. sekalian biar panjang.. wkwkwk.
btw, keyboard laptop gw lagi rusak nee.. tuts yg 'P' tba2 menghilang, jadi klo mo nulis ntu hurup gw uda kayak pke touch screen.. hwhwhw.. okei, mulai di hari...

Kamis, 7 Mei 2oo9
hari check up gw k dokter gigi. harusnya c gw check up ari selasa, cma bokap gw lagi males nganterin, jadinya diganti hari kamis.. nah, waktu mo nganterin, bokap gw tba2 ngajak gw ke tempat furniture dulu, soalnya kan gw minta meja belajar bwat kamar gw.. truz, gra2 ntu tpt furniture di deket MAG n dokter gigi gw ad di MOI, jadi bokap gw ngambil jalan yg keluar kelapa gading terus masuk lagi. kan jadi lebih deket tuh, ga usa muter2.. nah, waktu uda mo masuk k kelapa gading lagi, tiba2 bokap gw berdecak truz ngomong, 'duh, kir.. harusnya kamu pake si belt tuh.' mungkin bokap gw uda pnya feeling ato gmana,, tba2 beneran,, mobil gw distop polisi truz disuru parkir dulu di pinggir.. HUAAA.. T.T beneran deh, gw takut banget waktu itu. truz uda gtu waktu kaca mobil dibuka polisinya ngomong ke gw lagi, 'kamu kenapa ga pake sit belt ya?' cuma nadanya uda yang sinis gitu.. gila, gw ampe lemes n cma bsa cengo, ga bsa ngomong apa2.. untung bokap gw amat sangat jenius n mengambil keuntungan dari kelemesan gw saat itu.. bokap gw bilang 'ia, soalnya dia lagi ga enak badan, (jadi makin pusing klo pake)'. well, waktu denger ntu, langsunglah gw makin lemes2in badan gw.. wakakakk.. truz uda gtu bokap gw disuru keluar. (untung bukan gw yang disuru keluar.. thanks god!! T.T). waktu masuk lagi c kata bokap gw dia cma minta maap doank. dunno deh klo ada salaman yang berkaiatan dengan bebasnya bokap gw dan gw.. (duh, kayak gw ngapain aj ye.. norak nii.. wakakakk)
eniwey, akhirnya sampe lah gw di dokter gigi, truz mulai deh penderitaan gw.. tahukah anda? saat2 paling menyakitkan waktu pake kawat gigi adalah waktu lagi check up? 'coz karet yang narik gigi kita dicopot yang ngasih kenyamanan sementara tapi truz tba2 dikencengin lagi 2x lipet.. and the process of putting the rubber onto my tooth isn't much of a holiday either. gigi gw yang uda rentan makin sakit lagi gara2 dokter giginya ngebengkek dan ngacak2 gigi gw, apapun dia lakukan biar ntu karet sialan nempel ke gigi gw.. tapi terus dokter gw bilang sesuatu yang bikin gw seneng banget. 'eh, gigi kamu uda lurus ya??(gigi gw kan ad yang masuk satu tuh..)'. truz gw cek pake lidah gw, dan ternyata bener!! gigi gw sekarang uda ketarik ma karetnya, jadi sekarang uda maju n hampir lurus ma gigi2 tetangganya.. yeyy!! XD

Jumat, 8 Mei 2oo9
ari terakhir skul sebelum libur lumayan panjang.. wkwkwk. kemarennya gw uda ngajak syeanne, dea, amel, ma winnie buat maen ke rumah gw. cuma, c agus mo ikut. truz uda gtu maureen belom dijemput, jadi kita berangkat bareng2 deh kerumah gwa.. wakakakk.. truz, uda gtu cathy nelpun n gw ajak jga kerumah gw.. yasuw lah, jadinya makin rame.. XDD
dirumah gw, qta ngedeprok di kamar baru gw truz manicure rame2.. wakakakkakk. truz uda gtu qta nonton video2 klip dari utub n gambar2 keren yg dikirim ke email gw. wkwkwk. pkknya seru banget deh.. truz uda gtu syeanne bawa alat khusus manicure gtu, kayak jarum, jadi qta bisa gambar2 di kuku kita. truz entah apa yang ngerasukin gw, tiba2 gw ngegambar bunga2 di kuku gw dan hasilnya lumayan keren. kayak manicure2 yg uda ahli gtu.. wakakakk.. *narsis..*
hmm, sebenernya gw uda foto c jari gw yang keren itu,, (cuihh.. :P) cma gra2 hape gw yang bisa dikonek ke inet uda dijual, jadi nanti harus kirim dlu ke hape cici gw truz baru masukin kompi. huhh.. menyebalkan.. liat aja, bentar lagi gw beli hape baru!!!

Sabtu, 9 Mei 2oo9
Gwa pegi ke bandung.. dan komputer+inet gw ditinggal.. gara2 cici gw dengan nyolotnya ga mau ikut.. dan dia bilang dia mo ngerjain tugas,(yang setelah gw tanya waktu gw balik dia ga bikin sama skalii).. grrr.. gedeg banget gw kmaren.. eniwey, bokap gw mo nyoba hotel yang baru dia temuin. hotelnya,, well, clearly not very decent, but still acceptable.. seengganya masi ada cici sepupu gw, jadi ga orang tua semua.
oh, ia.. gw mo cerita dlu soal beberapa bulan yang lalu soalnya nyambung ma cerita yang ini. jadi, dlu tuh waktu kita lagi di bandung jga, koko sepupu gw lagi ama temen2nya. namanya ko didi ma ko arman. truz qta makan bareng2 di the valley. nah, c ko arman tuh tantenya yang pnya villa yang dinginepin ma koko sepupu gw, jadi c ko arman ntu ngajakin qta buat liad2 villanya. cma gra2 cici gw uda ngiler makan wedang ronde, jadi cma bokap nyokapnya sepupu gw yang ikut. nah, waktu tante-om gw balik dari villanya, mreka bilang villanya tuh keren banget, uda gede, desainnya unik, truz ada kolam renang di lantai paling atas yang bisa dibuka-tutup sesuai keperluan. yahh, pkkny kayak villa2 orang kaya gtu lah.. wew, gw ma cici sepupu gw jadi nyesel dunk.. gra2 cici gw napsu makan ronde, qta jadi kaga ngeliat villa keren gitu..
kembali ke sabtu kemaren, om gw ngajakin buat ngeliat villanya c ko arman. ya kita ayu2 aj dunk. nah, abis qta muter2 di komplek villanya, om gw tiba2 nunjuk 1 villa truz bilang yg itu villanya. yauda qta keluar mobil dunk. truz uda gtu kn disono ada yang ngejaga gtu, cma dia asal ngasi masuk aja, kita makin kira klo mank bener villanya yang itu.. tapi terus waktu uda masuk tba2 tante gw ngomong, 'EH! kayaknya salah deh. dulu ga kayak gini ah rumahnya!' duennggggg~ gila, gw ma cici sepupu gw langsung ngibrit keluar ambil ketawa ngakak. wkwkwk. tpi uda gtu villanya ketemu c, n bener keren bangett!!! gw ma cici sepupu gw foto c, cma gw lpa ngambil dari hape cici sepupu gw.. dan foto gw yang lagi rame2 di the valley tiba2 ilang.. not a good day for uploading picture i suppose.
btw, waktu pulang2 dari the valley, qta kan lagi ngomongin tuh ko didi ma ko arman, cma gw dlu tuh kebalik2 gtu arman ma anwar, jadi waktu lagi ngomongin c ko arman, gw nyeletuk, 'ih, mank masi jaman yaa nama anwar?' cici sepupu gw ma tante gw langsung ngakak. truz dikasitau klo namanya tuh arman. tapi ampe skarang gw masih suka ketuker2, n bahakan pernah bikin cici gw ikut ketuker,, wakakakkk~ piss

Minggu, 10 Mei 2oo9
gwa dari kmaren dan ampe sekarang lagi shock karena suatu hal. pada tau kan Jason Mraz? yah, klo lu ngomong ga tau c berarti sekarang lu lagi ga baca blog gw.. ini blog kn belakangan ini isinya dia semua.. wakakakkk.. btw, kan dulu dia pacaran dengan seseorang bernama Tristan Prettyman. dari taon 96, truz putus klo bukan taun 2oo5 ya 2oo7. jadi kan klo bukan 9 taun 11 taun tuh. gw c tadinya uda tau lumayan lama, cma gw nganggep itu cma sekedar pengetahuan asal aj. truz kn gw pernah baca, mereka tuh bikin 1 lagu bareng. judulnya 'Shy That Way'. truz gra2 lagi iseng, gw download deh tuh lagu n gw liat liriknya.. dan waktu gw baca liriknya,, o my God.. O MY GOD!!!!!!!! gw uda mau nangis gilaaaaaa!!! lagunya sweet bangeeeetttt!!!!!!!!!! kenapa mereka bisa putus??!?!?? mereka uda pacaran seengganya 9 taun, dan dengan lagu ciptaan mereka yang kayak gtu.. kenapa???!?!? T.T kayaknya cinta tuh mank ga ada yang di dunia ini.. huhuuu.. TT.TT
dan ngomong2, ketika gw masih shock gtu, entah kenapa gw malah nyari lagi suatu informasi.. gw kan dari dulu ngikutin princess diaries, cma di skul tuh volumenya ga lengkap. kmaren gw minjem buku ke 9, buku ke 8 ga ada di perpus. waktu gw baca, gw kaget banget, soalnya c Mia ma Michael uda putus!!!! Amelia Thermopolis ama Michael Moscovitz yang lagu ciptaannya masuk salah satu lagu terkeren menurut gw!!! T.T. bis ntu gw search di yahoo answers knapa mreka bisa putus.. dan waktu gw baca jawabannya, gw yang uda depresi gra2 Shy That Way makin terpuruk lagi.. jawaban yang gw baca adalah.. "karena Michael ketauan uda pernah tidur ma cewe lain." OMG. walopun Michael tuh tidur ma cewe laennya waktu lum jadian ma Mia, tapi menurut gw jga itu salah banget!!! di buku2 sebelumnya uda dijelasin klo Michael ma Mia tuh uda lama saling suka, cuma ga berani aja dua2nya.. kalo Michaelnya sayang ma Mia ngapain dia ma cewe laen coba??!? T.T
well,, dengan informasi2 itu, gw bener2 da memutuskan.. yang namanya CINTA tuh ga ada. hikz2..

last, gw mo ngasi liat lirik Shy That Way. gw jga uda nonton video mreka waktu lagi nyanyi. disitu mreka jelasin kalo mereka tuh uda sering konser bareng, tapi mereka ga ada yang berani ajak ngomong satu sama lain.. well, ni deh.. lagunya.. T.T

Shy That Way

Jason Mraz ft. Tristan Prettyman

[Tristan Prettyman]

You know you're stunning

You're absolutely stunning

And I'm running, I'm always running

And now I'm crying

It's only 'cause I'm caring

And if you were more daring

Maybe you'd stop staring

And come over and talk to me

Tell me 'bout how you've been waiting so patiently

And how you tried, but I just turned away

And I'll say yeah well you know,

I'm shy that way

Shy that way

Maybe I'm shy that way

[Jason Mraz]

Ohh you know you're stunning

You're absolutely stunning

But you're always runnin'

But I'll catch up to you

The way you keep your distance is

Keeping my interest

So I'll keep it consistent

Ohh maybe someday

Someway, somehow in some town

We'll get together and

We'll break it down

And I'll ask why you've been

So shy, gotta be that way

Maybe baby, oh love, I like it that way

Shy that way

You know I love you so shy,

Shy that way

[Tristan Prettyman]

There's always too much talking

And I wanna just keep walking

But I keep staring baby

Keep staring

Though I may not know the right things to say

I'll get it out to you one day

[Tristan and Jason]

I'm shy that way

You're shy that way

Do you like it?

Do you like it?

When I'm shy this way?

Yes I like it

Yes I like it

When you're shy

Shy that way

I like it

I like it shy

You know it's alright, it's ok

'Cause we're

Shy that way.

Beauty in Ugly?? Hmph, not so much..

Okay, this is way too much to bare.. In this few days I feel like a living zombie. Not that I really know which monster is a zombie nor I know what would a zombie feels and does,, but still..
And I came up with many ideas at school to write in this blog and somehow the ideas just vanished as I went home. How great is that?

speaking of vanished, I remember one of the ideas.. lol. well, it still has to do with the zombie problem. Well, lately I've been feeling strange. It's like I'm slowly evaporating because of everything that's been happening. I think I'm stressed out 'coz I'm trying to deal with the problems in school and at home, but trying to run from all of the problems. I want to do what I want without thinking of anyone's feeling but I try to keep everyone's feelings happy. all of that at the same time. I mean, who could DO that???!? You know, you really should feel how my brain works (if it's not retarted, then it's working too fast. either one, it's not working as it should have). for example, one time a person pissed me off and I felt an extreme rage for that person. But a second later, I started to think that he must have a good reason for him to do that. But then I thought again, 'To the heck with that! even if he has he has a reason, it doesn't give him permission to do that!'. And yes, I started to defend him again, then hate him again, and again, and again, and again... Until I myself forgot what was really the problem.. And I don't only think like that when I'm pissed. I think like that on EVERYTHING. You know, I think it's because of all the adults keep telling me to calm down, don't hold grudge, everything have a positive side, bla bla bla bla bla... Well they never told me how to deal with the negative side!! Ugh, psychology sucks. Life sucks. We're ALL SUCK.

Btw, remembered another one. Remember that dufus I told you about on my last posting? Well, I've been dodging him since that first day. Thanks god he doesn't sends me text message anymore. But he still comes to my class every now and then.. Gosh, I hate him!! I'm starting to be nauseous just to think about that.
Anyway, one of the ways I tried to dodge him is to put my 'I will hurt you if you dare come near me'-face. But because every reccess has a possibility that he 'bumps in' to me, now I'm used to put the-unwelcoming-face everywhere I goes. In some cases it's not that big-a-deal, but in other cases, well that's just plain ugly. I really hope he finally comes to his senses and LEAVE ME ALONE... before that face really becomes a habit.


GOD, WHEN WILL ALL OF THESE END??

The ugly, unstable me..

oke,, belakangan ini banyak banget kejadian yang bikin gue mau gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. T.T

well,, hari rabu kemaren, gw kn lage ngegosip wkt pel prancis =P,, teruz gw lupa gmana jadinya,, gw ma temen2 sekeliling gw malah jadi ngobral.. qta cerita ttg org yg kita ska+yg pernah qta suka.. wkwkwk,, gila.. seru banget kemaren.. teruz, kn gw cerita ttg seseorang, truz c yoko ngasi tau gw, katanya,, seseorang itu kyaknya lagi persiapan mo nembak seseorang.. weqq,, lsg strez gw.. uda dlu gw perna mimpiin mreka jadian DI RUMAH GW. mank aneh tu mimpi, ngapain jga k rmah gw buat adegan penembakan bis itu mesra2an dirumah gw.. ckckck.. tapi, karena mimpi gw banyaaaaaakk,, banget yang jadi kenyataan,, entah kenapa gw pnya feeling klo nanti seseorang ntu bakalan nembak tepat didepan mata gw.. bahkan kemaren tba2 gw pnya feeling klo didunia mereka sendiri, mreka tuh ud saling memiliki,, belom official aj.. mungkin buat kalian pemilihan kata 'memiliki' agk lebai c, tapi menurut gw itu kta yang paling tepat bwt mendefinisikan mereka bedua.. I mean, you should see them when they're together! It's kinda heart-breaking.. *sigh*


OK, jadi gini ceritanya,, gw pnya temen cewe, kita panggil dia A. dlu gw sekelas ma dy.. teruz di kelas yg sama jga ada seorang cowo.. kita panggil dia B.. waktu ampir akhir semester, B ngomong ma gw, dia demen ma A, truz dy minta tolong gw.. yauda gw bantuin donk.. teruz,, setelah beberapa lama, gw tau klo A tuh ga ska ma B.. dan sebelum itu gw jga uda tau c klo A tuh demen ma co laen.. pkkny tuh c B masi keukeuh pedekatenya.. cuma gra2 wkt itu lulus SMP n A pinda skul, surut jga tuh pedekatenya c B. singkat cerita, kira2 2-3 bulan yang lalu, tiba2 B ngomong ma gw klo dia mo nyoba pedekate lagi.. yauda gw coba konekin lagi donk.. cuma gra2 itu gw jadi ngerasa klo A yg dlu deket banget ma gw jadi ngejauh gra2 gw kyk maksain c B gtu ke dia.. dan gw jga uda ga ska ma cara B ngedeketin temen gw c.. jadi gw desek pelan2 lah biar B nyerah aja.. terus, kira2 2-3 minggu yg lalu, c B ud menunjukkan tanda2 nyerah.. truz gw nanya kan, mank knpa dia uda misah ampir setaun tapi masi mo pedekate,, dan dijawab gra2 dia tuh pertama kli demen ma cewe, jadi ga tau gimana ngelupainnya.. teruz setelah gw prep-talk,, akhirnya diantara sabtu-senen kemaren gtu dia bilang dia uda nyerah.. TAPII, ga tau kenapa hari selasanya B tba2 sms gw, nanya bahan ulangan.. binggung lah gw,, orang gw ga sekelas, mank kelas dia ga ada yang tau apa bahan ulangan?? cma akhirnya gw kasi tau bahannya.. teruz ternyata bis itu dia ngajak gw nemenin dia ngobrol n dia teruuuussss,, ngajak gw ngobrol padahal tuh gw uda pake kalimat yang kalo orang normal bakal ngerti klo gw ga mau sms-an ma dia.. akhirnya gw bilang aja gw mo belajar, padahal gw baru belajar jem 10 malem(^^V)
teruz, besokannya di skul dia makin nunjukin klo dia ada tanda2 pedekate ma gw.. GILA, gw bener2 jijik bangeet!!!!!!!!!!!! PLIS DEH, GUE BARU KELAR BANTUIN DIA PEDEKATE MA TEMEN BAE GW SENDIRI AMPE TEMEN GW ITU UDA GA TAU MASIH NGANGGEP GW TEMENNYA ATO NGA!!!! EMANG DIA GA PUNYA OTAK APA?!?!!!?! KATANYA DIA BARU PERNAH DEMEN MA ORANG,, GA TAU CARA LUPAIN.. TAPI 2 HARI SETELAH DIA NYARAIN GIVE-UP, DIA UDA NYOSOR KE ORANG LAEN!! DIA KIRA GUE APAAN!!??? DIA KIRA GUE BAKALAN MAU AMA DIA??!?!!!?! AMPE KAPANPUN GA MAU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AND YOU WANT TO KNOW SOMETHING??? GUE TAU KENAPA TEMEN GUE JUGA GA MAU AMA DIA. TERNYATA EMANG TUH ORANG BENER2 GA NORMAL,, CARA PEDEKATENYA JUGA GA NORMAL. MANA ADA ORANG PEDEKATE KAYAK LAGI INTEROGASI????!?? BAHKAN WAKTU GUA PERTAMA KALI DEMEN MA ORANG GA SEPARAH ITU
OMG, sumpah gw kesel abiss.. akhirnya wktu dia sms gue kacangin n gw langsung kabur waktu dia lagi kekelas gw..harusnya kalo dia masih ada sisi orang normal c nyadar yaa klo gw mau dia GA PERNAH GANGGU GUE LAGI SAMPE KAPANPUN.
Nb: Semoga gw cuma lebai soal ini n gw jadi bener2 ga ada urusan lagi ama dia. AMIN


OK, dari semua kegilaan diatas, at least ada 1 kejadian yang bikin gw lompat2an n histeris saking senengnya.. here goes..

GUE KETEMU BLOG-NYA JASON MRAZ!!!!!!!! XDDDDD

well, tadinya gw lagi nyari tab gitarnya lagunya dia, tapi truz gw kebuka suatu web yg salah satu linknya nulis 'Jason Mraz's journals/blog'. gila, gw langsung shock. gw pernah ngebayangin c Jason Mraz pnya blog tapi gw ga pernah menggangap khayalan gw cukup normal untuk dipastikan.. cuma setelah gw liat tu link, gw langsung buka google(hidup google!! wekekekekk) n ngetik "Jason Mraz Blog". dan ternyata mank ada!!!!!!!! XXDDDDDDDD

DAN INDONESIA DITULIS DI BLOGNYA!!!!!! XD DAN INDONESIA JADI JUDUL BLOGNYA!!!!! XDDDDDDD dia lagi ceritain konser keliling dunianya di bagian Asia.. dia ke hongkong, singapore, KL, n jakarta.. walopun gambar yg dia masukin kayaknya di KL, tapi judul postingnya 'the Indo Endo'. yeaaa,, u lose, suckers!!! <=maksudnya ke negara2 laen yg tadi gw sebutin yang ga dipilih buat jadi judul.. wakakakkkk =P

hmm,, klo diliat sekilas mungkin kita binggung yaa.. apaa,, artinya 'Endo'? kenapa harus Indo-Endo? pertama bahkan gw kira itu artinya mirip2 kayak endoderm ato apaa,, gitu.. cuma entah kenapa tiba2 gw mendapat pencerahan..

Indo kan negara terakhir yang dia kunjungin.. dan 'end' tuh artinya akhir.. jadi dia pengen bikin rhyme dengan nambain 'o' ke 'end'.. walopun aneh buat kita, tapi klo judul itu disebut pake aksen amerika jadi ga aneh koq.. 'o' di 'end' cuma kayak salah satu gaya mereka ngomong.. ahh,, mank kreatif banget c Jason Mraz.. ckckckck.. uda jatuh cinta banget gw kayaknya yaa ma dia.. wakakakakkk

ahh, gw jadi inget salah satu wawancaranya Mraz di majalah.. katanya dia selalu berusaha ngeliat segala sesuatu di sisi positifnya n ga mau biarin masalah2 yang numpuk bikin dia kacau.. mungkin gw harus nganut prinsip kayak gitu.. gw bener2 lagi ga stabil sekarang.. huhh..

A day @ the mall

O mai God gw cape bangeettttttt!!! gila, ari ni gw jalan di mal, dari jem 1 siang ampe jem 7.30.. kaki gw uda mo gempoorrrrrrr.... T.T

tadi, gw pertma maen dlu di timezone.. bis itu gw diajak nonton.. well, tadinya c gw ga mo nonton.. uda kapok klo nonton bareng2 gtu.. soalnya uda 2x gw diajak nonton dan akhir2nya gw tidur selama film.. bukan gra2 ngantuk, tpi gra2 gw ga kuat nontonnya.. kadang2 gw ga ngerti jga deh,, uda tau gw sensitif ma setan, adegan pembantaian,, pkkny sesuatu yg serem2.. tapi tetep aj gw diajak nonton film begituan.. film pertama judulnya 'the happening', di cerita itu, ceritanya tumbuhan ngeluarin semacem feromon yg ngebuat manusia berusaha ngebunuh diri mreka sendiri.. dan waktu mereka bunuh diri DIKASI LIAT. dan bunuh dirinya tuh ngelindesin diri ma traktor lah,, nusuk arteri leher pake sumpit rambut lah,, ahh,, pkkny serem banget deh..

truz, film kedua tuh the mist.. dari gambarnya kn uda agk serem kan, dan gw uda dapet sedikit pengalaman dari the happening yg dari judul n posternya ga keliatan serem sma skali.. klo ini kn judulnya aja uda 'the mist'. kabut kan biasanya dihubungin ma yang serem2.. gw uda bilang ga mau, cuma tiba2 gw uda dikasi tiket.. yapp, gw uda dibeliin tiket buat film n mau ga mau gw harus nonton.. alhasil, gw tidur wkt film berlangsung..

eniwey,, tadi gw nonton 'knowing'.. agak creepy c, tapi topik ceritanya cukup unik.. tentang kiamat.. yahh, bener kata temen gw,, abis nonton itu qta bakalan punya penghargaan yang baru soal hidup..

ngomong2, hari ini terjadi suatu musibah wkt gw di mal.. kn tadi gw abis makan coldstone,, XD,, truz gw minum kn, dan entah knpa gw bisa bego banget,, gw kurang kenceng nutup aernya.. well, beberapa menit kemudian, gw tiba2 ngerasa celana gw koq basah n di tas gw kayak ada yang netes2.. dan netesnya tuh bukan seiprit2 doank, tapi uda ngucur..
sadarlah gw klo tas gw isinya uda aer semua!!!!
gila, tentu aj gw langsung panik gra2 hape gw dua2nya plus dompet gw ada di tas.. well, dompet gw ama hape gw yang jelek selamat, tapi hape gw yang bagus uda ga ketolong.. hikz2.. padahal tu hape bentar lgi uda mo dijual n harganya masih 500rbuan.. sekarang tu hape tinggal seonggok besi yang ga ada harganya.. TT.TT
well, gw hanya berharap bokap gw kasian ma gw n inisiatif nawarin hape baru.. tapi gw jga c yang harus bayar.. huahh,, sudahlah mank nasib..
well,, segini dlu deh.. kaki gw bener2 uda ga mo kompromi.. sakiiiiiiiitttttttt... T.T

ahh, gitu lah pkknya..

OMG, gw uda lma banget ga nulis blog!!

sori yaa,, belakangan ini gw kehilangan 'gereget' buat nulis blog.. wkwkwk
huahhh,, padahal banyak banget kejadian seru2.. hikz2..

eniwey, baydeway buswey,, tadi tiba2 gw illfeel ma crush gw.. ckckck
ntah knapa tba2 gw ngerasa tuh orang amat sangat kecentilan n pecicilan ma semua cewe.. dan sebenernya beberapa lama yang lalu gw jga uda tau spa yg dia suka.. well, MUNGKIN sebenernya dy ga pecicilan kyk yg gw kira c.. di satu sisi gw mikir klo begitulah cara sosialisasi orang2 yg 'populer',, lawan jenis jga bsa jadi temen baik.. dan klo dia ga deket ma gw, gw jga ga bsa ngomel2.. siapa juga gw, smpe2 dia mo ngobrol ma gw. cuma disisi lain,, MENURUT GWE SMUA CEWE DIEMBAT MA DIAAAAA!!!!!!!!!! TT.TT
huaaa,, gw bnr2 uda ga ngerti ma cara pikir gw.. gw bsa sadar klo gw mungkin bkan spa2 buat dia,, tapi pada saat yang sama gw jga berpikir klo gw pasti di 'highlight' ma dia diantara org2 lain.. duhh,, entah nmanya narsis ato apa.. beneran gw uda pusing banget deh..
huhh,, sudahlah,, mari kita membicarakan sesuatu yang lebih menyenangkan..
pertma,, gw mo ngasi lirik lgu Jason Mraz (lagi.. =P) yg berjudul Mr. Curiousity,, yg mnurut gw lgi cocok banget ma keadaan gw skarang..
beneran deh, kayaknya gw uda jatuh cinta ma Jason Mraz.. I mean, he's not just tallented,, he's also HOT!! wakakakkk,, yasuw lah.. nih liriknyaaa


Mr. Curiousity

Hey Mr. Curiosity
Is it true what they've been saying about you
Are you killing me?
You took care of the cat already
And for those who think it's heavy
Is it the truth
Or is it only gossip
Call it mystery or anything
Just as long as you'd call me
I sent the message on did you get it when I left it
See this catastrophic event
It wasn't meant to mean no harm
But to think there's nothing wrong is a problem


I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(trying not to ask why)
Love is a mystery
Mr. Curious...


Come back to me
Mr. waiting ever patient can't you see
That I'm the same the way you left me
In a hurry to spell check me
And I'm underlined already in envy green
And pencil red
And I've forgotten what you've said
Will you stop working for the dead and return
Mr. curious well I need some inspiration
It's my birthday and I cannot find no cause for celebration
The scenario is grave but I'll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay


I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(trying not to ask why)
And love is a mystery
Mr. Curiosity
Be Mr. please
Do come and find me, oh
Find, find me, find me


I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
Cause love is a mystery
Mr. curiosity
Be Mr. please
Do come and find me


Love is blinding when the timing's never right
Oh who am I to beg for difference
Finding love in just an instant
Well I dont mind, at least I've tried
And I tried, I tried...


hikz,, lagunya sukses bikin gw nangis.. padahal lagunya cepet.. gw binggung, knpa lgu2nya Jason Mraz selalu pas banget liriknya buat kehidupan gw.. huahh,, mank uda jodoh kali yaa.. (maunyaa.. wakakakkk)


ok2,, kedua..
gw mo promosi sebuah toko ice cream yang sangat enaakkkkkkkkk~~

COLDSTONE CREAMERY

well,, coldstone tuh toko eskrim yang unik banget, karena mereka nyiapin eskrim, tanpa topping apa2,, dan mereka juga nyiapin topping n fudge yang terpisah.. dan toppingnya jga banyaaakkkk,, banget n macem2.. dari yang biasa kayak chocolate fudge, chocolate chip, karamel n stroberi,, ampe yang ga normal kayak adonan kue, pie crust, yellow cake, sampe health bar yang bahkan gw ga tau apaan dan gimana rupa rasanya.. jadi kita bisa piih eskrim mana yang kita mau, truz milih topping apa yang kita mau.. klo toppingnya lebih dari 1 di charge yaa.. coldstone jga nyediain signature creations yang bisa kita pilih.. harganya uda dipukul rata, jadi berapapun topping yg ada di signature creations itu, harganya tetep sama.. nih beberapa diantaranya..namanya lucu2 kn?? wkwkwk yang uda pernah gw coba, chocolate devotion(buat pencinta coklat,, pilih yang ini..),, cookie doughn't you want some( cookie doughnya enak bangeeettt!!)
sma the pie who loved me(cheesecake ice cream, graham cracker pie crust, oreo cookie, fudge.. klo mo coba sesuatu yang baru, pilih yang ini.. enak juga koq..)

ok deh,, uda malem.. sebenernya masih banyak yg mo gw promosiin.. tpi gw uda ga kuat.. jadi promosinya segini aj yakh.. wakakakkk~

Last but not least,, beberapa hari yang lalu gw gw ketemu sebuah pepatah, ato semacem itu lah.. nih dia..

Life is short ...
kiss passionately, love truly
laugh constantly
And never stop smiling
no matter how strange life is
Life is not always the party we expected to be
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

A big blow and ends with a kiss..

ok, hari ini gw kesel bangeeetttttt!!
well, kejadiannya dimulai kmaren, wkt gw debat.. yah,, tau lah gw gmna klo uda didepan umum.. sering ngeblank2 gtoo.. pkkny, tim gw diteken abis2an.. tapii,, kita tuh ngerasa mereka neken kita bukan karena alesan yg jelas.. topik mosinya tuh 'dihapusnya remedial ulangan umum'. tim gw pilih kontra. gw uda binggung banget deh, semua usaha yg uda kita kerahin di counter dengan "kn harusnya semua murid berusaha lebih giat wkt ulum biar ga usah remed sekalian..". tpi hasil2nya lumayan lah.. pa Maraman masi bisa liat koq klo kita tuh berusaha..
TAPIIIIII,,, nih bagian yg bikin gw mulai gondok..
kn kelompok2 laen disuru kasi komentar ttg perdebatan kita.. terus, ada satu anak rese (ga usa nyebutin namanya, kalian jga pasti sebagian bsar uda tau spa..) yg ngomong klo kelompok gw (tapi ngeliatnya ke arah gw) itu terlalu banyak ngasih pendapat yang omong kosong.. wkt itu gw binggung kn, mank gw ngomong apa mpe dibilang omong kosong, n pa Maraman jga mpe nanya, maksudnya omong kosong contohnya apa?? n tuh anak cma bilang 'yahh, gtu lah paa.. hahaha'
swt bangeettt.. uda mulai keki tuh gw waktu itu, tpi kmaren gw masih bisa melupakan dengan mudah.. mungkin mank dy lgi sensi ma gw ato gmana gtu..
LALU HARI INI... gantian tuh anak satu yang debat.. mosinya 'dikirimnya pemuda indo ke jalur gaza'. ntu anak dapet pro. and you know what?? selama debat berlangsung, yang bisa gw pikirkan adalah 'ok, klo kemaren omongan gw omong kosong, omongan dy sekarang tuh SAMPAH!!'. plis deh, walopun tim dy tuh dadakan n ga ada persiapan sama sekali tapi ga usah ampe "menciptakan" sebuah fakta donk! pkkny gw uda enek abis deh ngeliatin dy debat. cuma banyak gaya doank, tapi yang keluar dimulutnya cuma 'blablablablabla....'
pertama2 mreka ngomong klo dikirimnya pemuda indo tuh gra2 empati antar negara, tapi, uda mpe akhir2 tuh anak ajaib tiba2 ngomong dengan pedenya..

"tapi Indonesia kan negara islam, n di al-quran tuh ditulisin klo harus saling ngebantu, apalagi sama2 negara islam.. (palestina tuh negara islam..)"

Whad the hell!!??!?
ok, gw mank ga tralu meratiin KN tapi gw tau kalo INDONESIA TUH BUKAN NEGARA ISLAM. emank mayoritas penduduknya negara islam tapi Indonesia BUKAN negara islam.. No offense (actually, LOTS of offense), tapi ITU KALO BUKAN OMONG KOSONG APA!!?!?!???!!

ugh, gondok abis2an gw tadi.. tapi sudahlah.. alesan gw ngebahas panjang lebar gini adalah biar gw bisa ngelupain kejadian ini.. buat apa nambah dosa gw dengan dendam ma dy??

hmm, truz ari ni pa lgi y yg seru..
oohh,, iya.. wakakakakk.. gini2.. entah knpa, tba2 gw inget suatu cerita wkt gw klaz 7..

di klaz 7f, ada 2 orang, mreka sebelah2an.. yg atu ce, yg atu co.. truz pada suatu hari mreka tuh mo ngomong barengan, jadi nengok bareng2.. nahh, pada saat itu, terjadilah suatu insiden..
wkwkwk, they were accidentally kissed.. and yes,, on their lips.. wekekekekekekkk

well, bis gw inget crita itu gw jadi penasaran.. gw kira2 masih inget spa tuh dua orang 'beruntung', tapi ga yakin.. akhirnya gw tanya temen gw, temen gw tanya temennya lagi, dan pada akhirnya semua orang menebak2.. truz ternyata bener ingetan gw.. yg meyakinkan adalah Maureen yg langsung tereak wkt kita lagi saling bertukar pikiran, "eh, itu kan ***!!!". beneran deh tadi tuh heboh banget.. dan begonya yg ngalamin tadinya ga inget.. lalu akhirnya kita semua ngakak gila2an.. yg ngalamin jga ampe tereak2an mpe naek2 bangku.. wakakakkk,, gw uda lama ga ketawa mpe selepas tadi.. pokoknya tadi seruuuuuuuuuuu..

btw, it happened again.. selama 30 menit dia berada kurang dari 10 meter dari tempat gw berdiri. just when I think I could forget about him, let him be happy with some chick.. life is SO unfair.

boy, oh boy..

Today, I just found out about something..

my crush,, he is currently close with someone.. and from what I've heard they have gone out for a view times.. dont know if they went together with their friends or just the two of them.. and to tell you the truth, it doesn't really matter to me.. the point is, they are already THAT close..

well, that information frustrated me.. but the crazy thing is, just when I finnished telling myself to forget about him, he showed up right in front of me in a period of 2 hours, more than he ussually does in 2 weeks.. I wonder why does that always happen.. when I think he's not right for me, he suddenly suprises me and makes me even crazier about him..

At that time, I was thinking.. "What if he IS right for me? What if I wait a little longer he will fall for me? What if we are meant to be together??"


But just now I realized something.. "What if.." is all that I could think of since.., forever..
I don't need "What if..". I can't just think a fairytale's gonna happen to me just like that. I'm not saying that it won't happen, but still.. I don't want to miss my real fairytale while I'm trying to make one in my mind.. besides, all this time, I'm way too persistent. Even if some guy means more than the world to me, if God say no, there's nothing I can do, right??
BUT, that makes me think of another problem..
What if the person that is given for me is not what I think he should be? (see, again with the what if.. --")
I know that it would be for the best, but doesn't I deserve a guy whom I like?
I mean, come on.. I want someone that is MY type.. I know that this kind of thinking is not right, and I know that I'm SO selfish.. but don't tell me you doesn't think the same way as I do!!?!?!
We're teenagers.. I suppose It's fine to think like that, for now.. we'll grow up when it's time.. Right?? LOL

Last but not least, song lyrics.. X) this song was sang by Jesse McCartney. I think this is quite the right moment to put the lyrics in this posting. Well, here goes..

Just so you know

by: Jesse McCartney

I shouldn't love you

But I want to

I just can't turn away

I shouldn't see you

But I can't move

I can't look away

And I don't know

How to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]Just so you know

This feeling's taking control of me

And I can't help itI won't sit around

I can't let him win now

Thought you should know

I've tried my best to let go of you

But I don't want to

I just gotta say it all before I go

Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you

There's so much I can't say

Do you want me to hide the feelings

And look the other way

And I don't know

How to be fine when I'm not

'Cause I don't know

How to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me

I'm wondering why I've waited so long

Looking back, I realize it was always there just never spoken

I'm waiting here... Been waiting here...

[Chorus]